It's hard to believe, and certainly some readers will not, but I have recently passed the $1 million dollar mark in my stripping / hustling career. And later this week, I will retire from the gold-digging life forever.
As with so many other of the milestones we all experience, its a mixture of happiness and sadness. I accomplished so much; I made so many mistakes. I learned so much; I have so much more to learn. When I was down I thought I would never be up again; now I'm up and I know the down times will return some day. Money isn't everything, but it makes a hell of a difference. Especially when you came from the gutter.
I grew up dirt poor, my mother was insane, my father didn't acknowledge me, and by the time I was 15 I was hopeless and homeless.
I knew three things: I was broke, I wasn't always going to be broke, and pussy was all I had to trade on.
I've worked in strip clubs, as an escort, but things didn't really come together for me until I put all my energy into gold-digging from a short list of wealthy men.
The gold digging took all kinds of forms. There was one man who didn't want to fuck me (really!). He dutifully showed up in his Jaguar and handed me $900 every time we saw each other. He wanted to be listened to. He needed a pretty to need him. Drives in the countryside, trips to Europe, he changed my life.
The next one was much more wealthy. It started with meeting once a week at a nice hotel, $2000 passed discreetly to me behind closed doors. He didn't just want sex on Friday afternoons. Sunday mornings he showed up at my shitty apartment and took me out for coffee. When I graduated from law school, he joined me to pick up my degree. Eventually he handed me a cheque for $150,000 to help buy my apartment. The money kept coming. I have so much to be grateful for. And so much to regret.
Could you suck dick of a man twice your age? Could you pretend his stinky balls don't bother you? Could you lay in bed beside someone who physically repulsed you, and pretend he's the man of your dreams? Could you do it for a million dollars? I did.
I reached a point when it wasn't worth it. The adventure was fun. I walked into Gucci store and spent money like it ain't no thang. Those sales bitches wouldn't have given me the time of day when I was younger. By the end, I pitied them. Looked down upon them. Spent my money and walked away to my easy life. Let them toil on their feet all day long, waiting for a commission. Same thing with the car dealers, the real estate agents. I proved my point.
Most of the money passed through my hands like water when you try to make a cup to drink from between your palms. Your thirst is quenched, but you're never going to be full.
Most of the money is gone now. Whats left will be enough to see me through to the next stage of my life. Whatever that is.
I'm in the 'fuck you' position now. If I don't like a job or people in my life, I can just say fuck you. I have my regrets but I wouldn't have it any other way. The alternative, honestly, it makes me shudder. Earning an honest living, when you started with nothing, is not something I could have survived.
Some day it might become a book. But for now, the lesson I learned is fairly simple. Save your money. It doesn't matter how much you are earning, the only number that counts is how much you are saving.
Pussy is a perishable commodity. By the time you realize this, its almost too late. I figured it out in the nick of time. The last score was enough to put a roof over my head and money in the bank, to achieve the fuck you position I needed.
What comes next? Who knows. All I'm sure of is that I earned more money in the past 7 years than most people do in an entire career. And what I have to show for it seems hardly enough for all the shit I had to deal with.
So if you're in this game, if any of this is resonating with you, just remember: it doesn't matter how much game you have, or if you're walking around in $900 shoes. You're only really making progress in the sex industry if you are saving your earnings.
Good luck ladies!



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