My mom gave me some pressure this afternoon about how she constantly worries about how I'll make money and support myself, and how it's disrespectful for me to keep secrets from her.
I've been wanting to tell her since I started, but my idea was to do it after I retired. A few years ago I asked her, "What if i worked as a go-go dancer?" and she freaked out saying that she'd worry too much, about my being in a "dangerous" environment. So I said OK, I won't do it then.
Well, today, I somehow felt like the timing was right, I felt a strong urge to do it this year, and since she seemed to be digging for information, I decided to give up on all the lies (so exhausting) and just tell her I'm a dancer. And that it has been my main source of income for the past seven years. And that I'm happy and safe, so everything is fine.
But I couldn't go through with it completely, so I told her "go-go dancer" instead of "stripper."
And she seemed OK with it!
She said that she's glad I told her, she appreciates my honesty (ack), and then she immediately started talking about my investing in real estate with a sense of optimism… she just didn't believe me before when i said I was saving up for a house, she didn't think my part-time gigs could ever really afford it.
Do you think it's ok that I lied about a minor detail? "Yes I dance with clothes ON"
Maybe I'll still tell her the whole truth in the future? Baby steps, right? I still feel like I made a huge breakthrough today, and that a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders.



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