So I used to have big boobs (34D) and then lost 30 pounds...now I have a deflated 32B (or C when I gain water weight from my period). I'm OK with what I have and I make decent money, but I do have to hustle and pretty much wear VS pushup bras all the time when I work. I'm also pretty limited in the gowns I can wear, for this reason. They aren't terribly saggy, like I don't need a lift and I've never had kids (don't plan on it either). But they're not perky at all IMO. So I've deciding to get a BA, and that is not up for debate, my mind is made up.
What seriously irritates me is when people feel the need to convince me that I shouldn't do it, when I never asked for an opinion. Or when customers run that bullshit when they say "I only like natural" or "fake boobs don't feel right" or "I can easily tell if they're fake." All of those statements are lies. BA surgery has become much more advanced, need I say more. But what really burns me is that my the bartender at my club (who is male) tried to tell me that I'm getting them because I want male attention. Um fuck no that's not my reason, jerkoff. I'm feminist at heart so I could honestly give a fuck about a man's opinion. I more than enough attention from men (custies and non custies) and I could give a shit, that only means that I have more assholes to sift through before finding an actually decent guy. I'm tired of dating piece-of-shit guys, I'd rather be single. Anyway, don't try to tell me why I'm getting my boobs done. It's my fucking prerogative! Last but not least, I'm annoyed by my coworkers and their hateful reactions. This one girl legit raised her voice at me and called me retarded for wanting a boob job, and a few others tried to tell me I was too small, too young (almost 21, but whatever), that I wasn't going to stop growing until 25 (psssh right!) and to wait until after I have kids (so possibly...never). However my friends told me that I would look good with one, and one of them makes great $$$$ with her fake boobs and actually taught me how to make $$$$ hustling, & she's hardly ever been wrong!
But the truth is, the reason I'm getting them is not to make money or impress anyone else (although money is a side perk). I'm doing it to impress myself. I want to look hot not only in bras or topless, but in a bikini, regular clothes, sports bras, or a fucking trash bag for that matter. People may judge me for this, and it's extremely frowned upon in this country (or my area of the country) for women to be vain, but I've been this way since I was young and thought I was a disney princess. No shame, at least I can admit it. It doesn't mean I think I'm better than others or that I don't perceive other women as very attractive. It doesn't mean that I'm stuck up and it doesn't mean that I only care about looks. Yet they are still very important, and if I grew up in a different country (such as Italy, Brazil, Colombia, etc) then my level of attentiveness to aesthetics would be the cultural norm. Plus my mom had her boobs done before I was a little kid, so I that was my standard of what boobs are supposed to look like. But whatever. I'm done now. I can afford the surgery and it's what I want, so I'm freakin getting it. Fuck everyone who tries to dump their negativity on me. Like Lil Wayne said, "I'm Ray Charles to the bullshit." Rant over.



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Many months later, I brought it up, and she admitted that she only said those things out of jealousy because she thinks I'm so pretty that it made her angry to hear that I felt a desire to surgically alter any part of me.
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