I'm sure there are a million threads of this nature so please point me in the direction - been off the forum for a while so have some reading to do!
Long story short I fell in love with a man I was with until a few days ago with for 6 months and early on told him about my work because I didn't want to lie. He tried to be ok with it but ultimately he wasn't. We fought constantly, every time we fought he would call me a hoe, whore, hooker, say I had diseases, accused me of sleeping with everyone even though I was with him 5 or 6 days a week, accused me of cheating daily, say I had no life was a loser which I do feel sometimes since this wasn't really what I planned for my life and don't feel like I really belong doing this. The worst thing is while I appreciate this job immensely I do struggle with it, so not exactly rich and often barely keeping up with the rent and bills because I don't work enough, so it's not even like I can say look at my house, car, independence, I bought it all. I've been trying to get out but haven't been able to financially yet
And i admit I would criticize him for having 5 kids with two different women because I was jealous because all I ever wanted was to get married and have kids.
obviously it was a toxic relationship and I'm better without it, but some of the things he said hurt so bad. Like no-one would ever marry me or get me pregnant because of what I did or making me feel like my body was dirty. I know none of it is true but I'm still reeling.
i know there are men out there who are supportive, and have no problem marrying or having kids with you when you are still stripping but it would be nice to be reminded right now. Going back to work in next few days and want to feel good. Thank you :-))



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and all the best as you work through this.

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