
Originally Posted by
KimKlass
Please don't get defensive when I say this, because I'm totally not saying you have a drinking problem; however, the fact that you are concerned enough about it to ask is suggestive. So please, if you think it's an issue or potential issue, don't ignore it. Drinking every day, even if you don't get very drunk, can get out of hand pretty quickly. Not to mention it's not great for you (hypocrite smoker here lol). I quit drinking entirely over a year ago because I was prescribed Xanax. But my anxiety has improved a lot since then and I just haven't bothered to drink again. I don't really care for it now and don't miss it. Know what's awesome about not drinking? Your stomach gets flatter haha. No hangovers, no dehydration, not to mention the money you save. Cigarettes are up next on the chopping block for me!
One big issue here is that you shouldn't have to feel like you need to drink to get through your shift. I totally understand that it can be easy to start relying on it to bring out your personality, but here's the thing- your personality is there without the alcohol, too. It might take some camming without alcohol to see it. Just this weekend, I ran out of my ADD meds, which I've ALWAYS taken for work for the last 3 years. Literally every shift, minus like 2 or 3 of them. So I was freaking out a little, thinking my personality and demeanor would be "off", and that I wouldn't be able to handle any tedium. BUT, because I had no choice, I cammed all weekend without my meds. It turned out seriously amazing! That was valuable to me because I proved to myself that I can do just as well on cam without it.
If boredom is the main issue, I completely empathize because I have ADD and boredom is basically water torture for me lol. Some of the things I do when I'm bored on MFC: Put on ridiculous songs to make myself laugh; play with my Slinky; read a book on my iPhone Kindle app and ignore the room until they decide to participate; read the news online; go to the Chatzy for SW; flat iron my hair again lol; get up and walk around my office, etc.
What's most helpful to me is having something to do with my hands. I'm thinking about getting some clay and making tiny, random sculptures when it's slow, for example. Get a coloring book, or a puzzle book like you said. Hell, take up knitting or something similar. What would you be doing if you were chilling in your room by yourself? Do that (unless it's something you should be charging $ for hehe).
Maybe you could start with camming without alcohol on your days that aren't generally your best earning days? Start with like one day a week, no alcohol on cam. Prove to yourself that you are fucking awesome without drinking. But first, get something to occupy your hands and your attention. Don't worry about looking silly; if you're entertained, do not give a single fuck. Good luck!
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