I think the answer might be a yes.
I am kinda nervous about camming again. I'm not gonna lie there's a self confidence thing going on here -
or the lack of it, but I really don't want it to hold me back.
There are also real, practical reasons. My last attempt at camming was rushed with little research behind the attempt.
It mean't that my equipment was shit, my patience was shitter and my drive and motivation was lukewarm at best.
Now, I want to make up for that. I spent a few hundred on things I need. I'm freaking out on building a nice disguise for my
cam persona. I'm not deathly afraid of being found out, but I thought it'd better to anticipate these things and try to prevent it.
Hence, I'm on wig hunt, lol!
I was going through depression then, as I am now, but I think my biggest enemy was going in blind.
I live with my parents and with the holidays coming soon, my siblings are coming home so the house will be busy,
so basically no privacy to cam comfortably and steadily - at least not for the next 2 weeks.
Thing is, my bank account is running low, I'm living on credit cards - not good. So basically I'm on edge.
I'm even wondering if the cam thing is worth it for someone like me.
I hate to say it - and yes I have read the BBW threads and have read the wise words of Goddess Sam38G,
but anxiety is a bitch and when it hits you with self doubt, you start to wonder if these 50 inch hips and huge belly will ever make you money.
Or if your skin is too dark or hair is too kinky.
Its a mess.
Sometimes, I just want to log on and fuck off the self doubt, but realistically it much harder to do.
Can any of you guys relate to this?



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It's also a nice confidence booster for camming IMO. 

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