So I haven't danced in almost 2 months due to severe burn out, but my desire to move ASAP is quickly overtaking my desire to not get groped on by nasty dudes all night. The longer we stay with my in laws, the more I can't stand it. They're good people and I really do appreciate them letting us stay here, but it's almost been a year and I just can't do it anymore.
In an effort to phase out of dancing for good I've started an amazon/ebay business--mostly going to thrift stores and outlets and buying things I can resell for a profit. I've also started making jewelry to sell on etsy but that shop isn't live yet. I've been working my ASS OFF from home whilst also taking care of my toddler all day while my husband works his 12 hour a day job...I've maxed out my credit card on goods and supplies/shipping, etc and have had to dip into my savings to pay bills. I still have enough saved to move though.
I'm beginning to see a small profit from my online business but it's slow...It's clear now that I'm going to have to dance until things take off. Soon I'll be taking care of the kid all day, working from home every spare minute I can, AND dancing on weekends.
Meanwhile my husband---after a year----has not saved a dime. He's been working 12 hour days for....I don't know what? He doesn't make enough for us to live on. He pays the internet bill and his credit card bills. He usually buys diapers and sometimes groceries. His parents pay his insurance and phone bill. I bought him a new phone when his old one broke because he couldn't afford it. He orders pizza and fast food at least 2 times a week, buys video games. He used to pay a couple of my bills for me but then 'couldn't afford to' so I pay 100% of my own bills and help him out when he's broke.
Yet I still have several thousand in savings and a small passive income coming in every day from investing.
When you observe these facts, you would assume that I'm the more financially stable one right? That I should be making the financial decisions for the family.
So when I told him we'd actually be better off if he just quit his job---that can't support his family---and helped me with my online business, took care of the kid so I can dance more, we'd actually have a lot more $$$$ in the bank and more coming in every day.
But according to him, he has "a steady job that he isn't giving up" and that "we can't rely on my income" because I've taken a few weeks off dancing. And what I done during my "break"? Built 3 businesses up from scratch.
I told him that I'm ready to move NOW. I have the money, so why wait? I need my own space. I feel like I have no privacy here...I can't even work out of the garage without being questioned. I have my father in law doing bathroom checks every day to make sure I cleaned it. I have my mother in law overriding my parenting decisions and getting into my business. Basically I'm tired of being treated like a child....but as long as we're living like children under someone elses roof, what can I expect? It's clear we just need to MOVE.
He freaked out and said he's not ready. We got into a big fight about it and haven't talked about it in days. I said I'm moving with him or without him. I can't keep putting my life on hold to make him comfortable. I am so stressed out that my hair is thinning out and I've started chain smoking (I've never smoked before other than the occasional cigarette.) I've lost 7lbs in two weeks.
I love my husband very much. He's a good person and a wonderful father, but I think this might be the beginning of the end. I'm planning to save another grand over the next couple weeks and I'm out as soon as I find an apartment. He can come if he wants.



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