Camgirl Confession: I've been a camgirl for three years in August, and I have not made a single video.
When I first began camming, I told myself I did not want to create videos so that I could have a little more control over my content and how far it would spread. I opted to do photo sets a few times a year instead. Well... the industry dynamic is changing, and to make myself more desirable/bring in extra monies, I want to start making videos. Last year, I opened up a few opportunities for custom videos for gents that knew me a little more personally/I had already done shows with.
Long story short, I never made the videos. I have a list of what all I need to do for who, but I have not created them. I feel TERRIBLE about it, but I have spoiled them with skype shows and photos, extra attention, and they are all very understanding that I have a serious mental block that is keeping me from filming. I WANT to make them, but I just... seem to freeze. A few of their videos involve a stunt dick, and they purchased a video opportunity before telling me exactly what they wanted, and I had to tell them that unfortunately I could not provide it. My husband does not have the build or cock to be a stunt dick. After this, I decided that I would not offer custom videos again, but instead only make them on my own terms.
I'm having a lot of body image issues lately that have kept me from doing both photos and, probably, videos. I can't control every aspect of my body in videos, and for the men that bought customs, even though they know me, I feel like I have to strive for some sort of perfection, and have to be perfect. Add on the fact that I'm talking to a wall when doing them, and I just don't feel capable.
tl;dr does anyone else have a mental block when creating their videos/first videos? How did you get past it? Any advice for a newb video creator? Did they love your videos despite any flaws you found in yourself or your filming?



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I know some I want to do with my Logitech c910 cam but I want to get a handheld cam for my other videos...ugghh procasinating takes on so many forms...I'm also scared of learning how to use the movie editor....of coarse staring at myself...ur worst critic




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