I am very introverted myself & i just came to the point where i understand it's all on me for not making what i wanna make on cam & not like i was thinking until now that is the others who affect my ability to succeed. Having a wake up call here, i got to watch some videos on youtube (teal swan is amazing) where it explains these things very well & it hit home to me on a very personal level.
My problem is, when i started camming many years ago i was working private based site(s) where only people who joined paid videochat were able to see me in an intimate situation & i was comfortable with that, pleasing a guy at a time. When free chat came up i could not just work it with same success cause i knew i was watched by many people & am not comfortable with this due to my introvert personality. More of, when gold shows were introduced on SM for me things got worse cause GS's require even more hustle which i am not comfy or able working it. That's why i could never dance or model even if i had the looks.
So i put the blame on changing industry & all thinking that's the reason i cant keep up with how the business change but in fact it's me, i cant do it, i cant perform knowing there are many people watching me, people i am not aware of (the invisible guests on SM for example), i always think there might be somebody that knows me & watches me in an 'indecent' posture.
This barrier will never go away in my case cause i am introverted & shy when it comes to intimacy so i'll say this job is not the right one for me now, before when no free chat available i could handle it better but not now, i mean i can still do it in the way it feels ok to me & can still make money in private/ exclusive but i cant hustle my room like others do, cant please the crowds.
I too wish to know if there are cases when an introvert switches to extrovert, if it's even possible, after eventually sorting out personal issues? Because in my case it's rejection & confidence issues, i am not afraid to admit these things because they part of me as a person & cam girl. I too wanna find answers

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