
Originally Posted by
Alexispearl
Hey ladies,
I need some advice..this guy wants me to do a custom video for him verbally attacking everything he stands for, looks like, etc..
Initially when he requested it, I agreed..whatever, I'll tell you your ugly and a loser..especially for 75 bucks for a ten min video. He wanted to send me a description of him to use to degrade him, so he did...
Now, I'm not so confident in this---I'm seriously afraid this guy is gonna kill himself to my video or something..
Here's what he sent:
My name is Simon and I'm from Sweden. I'm 26 years old and I'm still a virgin. I have never had a girlfriend or been on a date. No girl has ever shown any interest in me. In fact I've never even kissed or touched a girl.
I have ever since I was born hade enormous problems with all kinds of social interaction. I have never had any close friends and for most of my life I've been more or less completely alone.
Throughout my whole life people have constantly mocked and made fun of me, especially in school (even adults did it). When I was young I was wimpy, weak and underweight so I often got beaten up by the other kids. I never had a chance to defend myself.
In middle school I got severely bullied by a couple of cute girls in my class. They noticed that my face blushed and turned bright red when I got embarrassed (and I get embarrassed really, really easy). They made fun of me for this every day for about a year. They used walk up to me, point at me, laugh, push me, making remarks, held me so I couldn't escape etc. and once my face had started to turn red, which usually didn't take more than a couple of seconds, I had no chance to stop it, it just got redder and redder and the more red it got, the more they laughed. I had to struggle to not burst into tears.
The girls loved to this in front of others. Somtimes in front of our whole class. It was extremely humiliating to sit there on my chair with all my class mates standing around me and laughing their asses of. I hated to go to school because of this. I often lied to my mom and told her I was sick so I could stay home from school. I had trouble sleeping because of anxiety and sometimes I cried myself to sleep.
I was too scared and embarrassed to talk to an adult. After about a year of daily bullying they finally managed to get me to start crying like a little baby in front my entire class. This is probably the most embarrassing and traumatizing moment in my life.
I'm still having huge problems with facial blushing. Every time a girl (nurses, cashiers etc.) speaks to me my face turns red.
In high school I was completely ignored by everyone. I was never invited to any parties, I didn't have anyone to hang out with after school and the girls showed absolutely no interest for me. On Valentine's Day, people used to hand out red roses to those who they liked and of course I was always the one who didn't get any. I had no one to go the prom with so I had to stay home.
At this time I got depressed. I started to go to psychologists (which didn't help me at all) and I had to take antidepressant pills. I often stayed home from school and got really bad grades. I isolated myself and I got sort of apathetic (I didn't have any energy, I didn't eat enough, I spent half the days in my bed and I didn't take care of my hygiene). I decided not to go to college. After school I decided to stop visiting psychologists and taking antidepressant pills.
After school I was unemployed for many years and lived at home with my mom. After a few years I started to work with various web related stuff from home (which I still do). I don't make a lots of money but enough so I can pay for my own apartment (in which I live all alone), the bills and some food.
I have very little contact with the outside world. Somtimes I don't leave my apartment or speak with anyone for weeks. A few times every year a couple of my old classmates calls or visits me (probably out of pity). However I never get invited to any activities or parties. I always stay home alone on New Year's Eve and similar occasions (which is really humiliating). I have no hobbies.
I masturbate far too much. I do it at least 3-4 times every day, usually more and sometimes I do it up to 10-15 times a day. I always masturbate to femdom porn. I guess the masturbation is a way to relieve my anxiety. Often I can't sleep due to anxiety and then I have to get out of bed and masturbate.
I'm an ugly guy (both my face and body looks bad). I think my penis is quite normal-sized but unfortunately I have erection problems so I have to masturbate with a limp penis.
This is really embarrassing to admit but sometimes I watch pictures of cute girls and fantasize about them being my girlfriends and that I'm not such a pathetic and ugly loser. Usually when I lie in bed at night I imagine that I'm lying next to a pretty girl. Sometimes I even hug my pillow."
I don't think I can do it...could you? He said he's having a hard time finding someone who will be sadistic/cruel enough...
Sorry for the long post..I just genuinely don't know what I should do..
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