In brief, I'm half way through an unplanned pregnancy that I've embraced and am now really excited about.
Naturally pregnancy put a halt to me dancing. We are now living off my bf's income, which is pretty slim, but has a lot of opportunity for advancement in coming years. I don't think I even feel all that frustrated by the money, I think it's more a matter of losing self-reliance.
Lately I have been feeling a lot of anxiety from losing dancing as an option. I am 30 and had 'planned' to dance at least a few more years. Now I am wondering if after birth I will still have that option. I intend to stay home with the baby for at least 6 months-year. By the time I would even look into dancing I'd be 32. My tits were never really perky to begin with and I'm afraid by then they'll be totally deflated.Then I think maybe that wouldn't matter since my ass has always been my feature. And I'd probably be fine at a dive.
Then I think- why the hell am I worrying about all this? I know I should just wait and deal and see what the future brings. But the thought just keeps popping up. Anyone dealt with something similar?



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