Hello all,
I have recently been told that all the issues I have been having is more than likely a particularly nasty case of PCOS. As someone who works in an image based industry I wanna know how others with this disease deals with it. I used to be a happy 170lbs and in less than 6 months I went up to 220 and from a size 13 (I have giant hips) to an 18. Watching myself put on the weight was bad enough but the symptoms were hell. I was miserable. Hot flashes, sugar crashes and insomnia were daily along with feeling like I couldn't manage to get up and do anything.
I had no energy and for a girl who loves camping and hiking it was devastating. Also I have bulging lumbar discs and my pain went through the roof. I had no idea what to do and without health insurance I was trapped in a body waging war on itself. After 2 years I got health insurance, after tons of tests I get passed off to a fertility specialist which is of course not covered by my state insurance and after my first visit (375$) I had hope.
But its so expensive and the meds are weighing heavy on me. Last year I went to work for Score, I'm and XLGirl and I'm happy with it but even that is touchy because I don't do boy/girl scenes. Going from a size 18 to 20 knocked me from going back again and it broke my heart. I was a cam girl when I was still a size 13 and I was fiercely confident. I want to go back to camming but even with a decent little fan base I can't image feeling sexy enough on a daily basis to do so.
I love the sex industry. I'm great at my job but, the good day/ bad day ratio is killing me. I've lost 6lbs. Which is amazing considering nothing I have done for 2 years had helped me lost a single pound. But living with family, my car is dead and not working a normal job... it all contributes to my depression over PCOS. And I can't even talk about infertility, 29 and not even a pregnancy scare. I just would like to know who else deals with this, PCOS being so common I know I'm not the only one. I've looked through a few old threads but haven't found anything this year.
Just wanting to connect to other SWs who might live with this as well. Doesn't it suck?
Lucy Lenore
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