
Originally Posted by
CanadianRuby
Thank you, you guys for all of your heartfelt responses to my thread. I really, really appreciate it...and a lot of them made me get teary eyed. I was a bit worried I'd just get told "well, that's what you get for telling you're a cam girl"....but....I should have known many of you have either been in my situation personally, or can empathize with wanting to tell people in your personal life about what you really do online.
I think part of his particular issue....is he watched a lot of pornography. Not that, that is bad by any means....but....I think he views women as either being wholesome, and pure or being a "slut", with no grey areas in between. There are so many different types of women who cam, but I think for him, he didn't perceive me of ever being capable of camming like that. Plus, I think it was just generally disappointing to him, since....it is a control thing...like the false belief that if a cam girl gets naked for strangers, she can't possibly want to do things like that for her own enjoyment, or have them be meaningful experiences to her, etc.
I haven't talked to him yet today. I'd imagine he is still asleep, or, maybe just won't want to talk to me. I simultaneous feel like I want to explain myself more, but also don't want to....because I don't think it's my job to try and get him to have an open minded view of cam girls and the work they do. It's okay for him to jerk off to porn...but it's not okay for a friend or woman to actually BE an amateur, solo, cam girl lol.
I hope if I do stop talking to him....he will just let it all drop. Won't try to search me out, or try to 'expose' me. He can think what he wants of me.....but, I don't want him to try to ruin my life because he is angry or something.
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