Hi ladies. This is going to be long but I really need some help and appreciate any advice. So I have been doing this for about 6 years now. About a year and a half ago I got pregnant and had a miscarriage. I got severely depressed and have gained about 30 pounds. I have been barely working since then. I have felt unattractive and not motivated. When I do cam, I still make just as much and have had some of my long term customers say they think I look better because a lot of the weight has gone to my butt, boobs and thighs. I recently got married and moved in with my husband. He makes a decent living but we decided to keep separate bank accounts for now. He pays for all the bills except my car payment. I have always wanted to be a nurse so my husband told me to start school this semester and focus on that instead of worrying about working and money. I went to the doctor last week and finally went on antidepressants. I didn't want to attempt college while in a deep depression. She also gave me phentermine to help with my weight since I'm overweight now and antidepressants can cause weight gain. I am trying to get back on track. I used to have over $30,000 in savings. Now I have less than $1,000. I really want to build my savings account up, pay my car off and be able to help my husband out but I can't find the motivation. I work just a few days a month so I can make enough to pay my car payment and have gas money then I coast through until it's due again. How do you find motivation to cam even when you have no motivation? I thought about just waiting until the pills are helping, focusing on school and losing weight and trying again in a few months. Part of me just feels like it's time I'm wasting though. Thanks in advance.



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