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    Ok. I lost my shit on cam today. I had a smile on my face all fucking day despite the guys not chipping in for GS's, not talking, not going private, etc.

    The rage finally came over me and I lost it. Why do I feel the need to try and make these guys understand what it's like for us? Why do I try and reason with them?

    I feel guilty now. I feel like I was out of control and I feel foolish. I actually went ballistic on an asshole who taunted me. I gave in to what he wanted and I'm nauseated over it.

    I went on today telling myself over and over to keep smiling. Like I said, I kept my composure for the duration of the day, then after 4 GS countdowns back-to-back, I just lost it. It's hard to keep smiling. It's just so......fucking.......hard. I should have just logged off, but I'm so work-driven.

    You girls get this way?

    I'm beating myself up so hard for being so vulnerable on cam.


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    I'm 99.9% sure they can smell weakness and anger. I value myself too much to let them see me at my lowest. If I'm having a wretched day (or days) & not hitting goal, I make sure they know how much it sucks to be them. "I guess I'll just go and masturbate by myself... Pity you aren't going to join me! I'll probably squirt everywhere."
    Or I sign on another site.

    I recommend watching a funny movie and eating cheap chinese carryout. Always makes a 1 star day a 4 star day instantly.
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    Been there, done that. Then finally wised up, if I let them upset me, they win. Now, if at that point, log off film you calling them every name in the book, flip them off. This kind of content sells well for me and I get my frustrations out.

    They can hate on me all they want, I laugh, I make fun of them. Cracks me up, more I laugh, more they get pissed off. Guys who seem me handle them this way, start tipping or take me private. NOBODY is going to fuck with my money.

    Now, if it is slow on one cam site, then my backup site wont be. If both are dead, then film videos, marketing, editing, learning new skills & hustles. Moving forward at all times.
    It is a job, want to cuss me out, great, got to pay for that, want me to cuss you out, even more expensive. Go to my profile on SM, I have 3 times the tags of bitch than I do about my boobs. Cracks me up... guys who read that and want sph pay big money when they can't con you into doing it for free.

    Laugh, have fun. As Scarlett said "Tomorrow is another day" Gone with the Wind


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    I have done that today lost it in a gold show after being trolled by someone just snapped because of all the hate i had today and people being nasty most of my shift tonight. I usually keep my cool but sometimes it comes out. We are human after all and hard to deal with it some days when it becomes overbearing. I felt bad afterwards and still do. I should of known better but it was just one of those days for me. Hope you feel better dont beat yourself up too much over it, you will have an amazing day again thankfully these are few and far between when it happens.Hugs to you. Hope you are feeling better.

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    Girl I do it once a month. But I've gotten into the better habit of logging off before any can see the whole freakout. There are a bunch of camgirl freak out videos that go viral, and I don't plan on being one.

    Anywho, its okay. Log back on like nothing happened, and look at like a new day.





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    Yep, happens to all of us. I hate when guys troll during gold shows because I don't feel like I can give them the proper attention they need . I just ban them and act like it didn't happen. Channel that inner anger and fucking eviscerate someone in a paid chat and I guarantee you will feel better.

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    Best way to get it under control is block, kick or block. Do not engage, you dont owe them attention or explanations. Smile sweetly & block.
    Our haters are our best fans, they can't get enough of us & hang on every word. There are men who love getting girls upset or exploding on cam, they get off on it.

    Never be embarassed, crazy can sell too. Realize these guys go room to room alll night long, not as if they hate you inparticularlly, they go from room to room doing the say thing to lots of cam girls.

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    I go crazy, I still have customers, I act like an entitled princess, and other cam girls will point out how bad that is...what is bad about pointing out all the jerks, losers and asshats in your room? I straight out tell them get out if they are brokeass and don't waste my time. I tell them stop wasting time on camsites and instead go find ways to make money. I go on about WFH jobs they can start right away so they can stop farting around. Then I go on massive kicking/banning sprees to "freshen up" my room. Almost always after the purging, I get tippers and privates. Try it, it works, you don't have to get off cam, you get to vent and get out your frustrations and sometimes you will get a guy who was once a brokeass loser come back to thank you and tip.
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    I get it...it happens to the best of us. Especially towards the end of a long day, I just can't help but say some mean stuff to guys who beg. Once, I even started crying because I couldn't take it anymore

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    We all do in our own ways because we're human beings, not sexual beings so don't beat yourself up for it.

    I have to say I've been very lucky to have never been pushed to the point where I go ape shit but I'm also ban happy. The guys online are much more nicer and considerate to me than people in real life.

    You just gotta remind yourself that not everyone deserves your energy online and in real life. A lot of people don't matter so hold onto your peace and don't let anyone steal your joy.
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    Girl, I've been there. Some sick bastards take pleasure out of riling up camgirls. I've cried on cam a couple of times. One big spender was really into it :L
    It's not good to feel weak - you are meant to be the one in control on cam. In a situation where I was breaking down in free chat it's best to turn it off and get onto a website with no free chat. You'll have a moment to compose yourself and not have to worry about losing money cuz you needed to calm down.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Chellyinparadise View Post
    I have done that today lost it in a gold show after being trolled by someone just snapped because of all the hate i had today and people being nasty most of my shift tonight. I usually keep my cool but sometimes it comes out. We are human after all and hard to deal with it some days when it becomes overbearing. I felt bad afterwards and still do. I should of known better but it was just one of those days for me. Hope you feel better dont beat yourself up too much over it, you will have an amazing day again thankfully these are few and far between when it happens.Hugs to you. Hope you are feeling better.
    YES!!!! I was up so late last night thinking about it. I don't want to be "that" cam girl who loses her shit. I just couldn't help it. Sometimes I feel better after going off (because it's such a release), but then I regret it. I posted this hoping that I would get a response like yours! Thank you!


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    Quote Originally Posted by audritwo View Post
    Girl I do it once a month. But I've gotten into the better habit of logging off before any can see the whole freakout. There are a bunch of camgirl freak out videos that go viral, and I don't plan on being one.

    Anywho, its okay. Log back on like nothing happened, and look at like a new day.
    OMG! Yes. After I posted in here, I went and Googled "angry cam girl" and saw that a girl's GS countdown was viral. It was a SM model. It seemed that she always fed into the trolls (which I do not do). I usually silently block them or give them an "aw, you trying to bring me down because you were never hugged as a child?" It was like she had a room full of guys who gathered just to make fun of her to see her get angry. I will never get to that point. Yesterday was a "once a month" freakout - PMS time is also a factor. Fucking Aunt Flo will be here with her luggage tomorrow.

    I woke up this morn and said to myself, "Keep smiling today". That's what I will keep doing. Thank you!!! Your responses are EXACTLY what I wanted to see.


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    Quote Originally Posted by BadBitch View Post
    YES!!!! I was up so late last night thinking about it. I don't want to be "that" cam girl who loses her shit. I just couldn't help it. Sometimes I feel better after going off (because it's such a release), but then I regret it. I posted this hoping that I would get a response like yours! Thank you!
    You are welcome i understand how you felt. Hope youre feeling better today.

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    Don't beat yourself up! It happens. Hopefully you feel better by now.

    I used to tell people in my cam room off all the time, but then I realized that reacting that way actually makes me more unhappy than just smiling smugly and banning them without a word. Being mean back to people who are pissing me off makes me more pissed off somehow.

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    Quote Originally Posted by sovereignv View Post
    Don't beat yourself up! It happens. Hopefully you feel better by now.

    I used to tell people in my cam room off all the time, but then I realized that reacting that way actually makes me more unhappy than just smiling smugly and banning them without a word. Being mean back to people who are pissing me off makes me more pissed off somehow.
    Yea i agree and also it tends to make you feel not only stressed during and after but you also feel physically sick. It takes alot out of you. Hate the days that they push your buttons to the extreme, luckily it isnt like that often.

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    Happens to the best of us. Don't sweat it. Last week on cam after 2 very dismal days I had 2 of my top whales shit on me back to back, which I dealt with without getting upset, then I had a guy come in and buy videos then do the, 'can I have a smile? Are you okay? You look upset.' At that point in time with stressing about working so many hours, my 2 regs being asshats, then THAT question, I turned my cam and lost my shit and broke down. I recollected myself, told myself this week not to worry or stress, and now I've made 2x this week then I did last week and got myself refocused. Don't stress it, sometimes the stress gets to us which is very understandable. Hope you're doing better now!

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    I fucking love you ladies!! Thank you.

    I kept my chin up today. I wasn't nearly as PMS-y as yesterday. That helped my mood.

    I'm so happy to have your support. Thanks for making me feel better!!!!


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    Quote Originally Posted by BadBitch View Post
    I fucking love you ladies!! Thank you.

    I kept my chin up today. I wasn't nearly as PMS-y as yesterday. That helped my mood.

    I'm so happy to have your support. Thanks for making me feel better!!!!
    Glad you are feeling better.
    You are welcome ...we are always here for you

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    Ditto!


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    Quote Originally Posted by BadBitch View Post
    Ok. I lost my shit on cam today. I had a smile on my face all fucking day despite the guys not chipping in for GS's, not talking, not going private, etc.

    The rage finally came over me and I lost it. Why do I feel the need to try and make these guys understand what it's like for us? Why do I try and reason with them?

    I feel guilty now. I feel like I was out of control and I feel foolish. I actually went ballistic on an asshole who taunted me. I gave in to what he wanted and I'm nauseated over it.

    I went on today telling myself over and over to keep smiling. Like I said, I kept my composure for the duration of the day, then after 4 GS countdowns back-to-back, I just lost it. It's hard to keep smiling. It's just so......fucking.......hard. I should have just logged off, but I'm so work-driven.

    You girls get this way?

    I'm beating myself up so hard for being so vulnerable on cam.
    I don't know if this will be helpful advice to you because it depends on what site you work on. (I know cams.com makes you show your face all the time.)

    But when guys pissed me off on SM, how I got a break from it is that I just put the camera on my boobs so they couldn't see my face and then would proceed to distract myself with something on the internet ignoring my room completely until I calmed down.

    YMMV with this technique, but for me if I got pissed off enough to log off then I could never convince myself to get back on.

    I figured it was better for me to just take my face off of camera and completely ignore my room for a while even if people got pissed off at me in my room for ignoring them.

    Sometimes guys would even surprise me taking me private while I wasn't responding to them at all.

    I know that everyone's hustle is different and this may not work with your hustle or your cam site but I figured I'd mention it on the off chance it was helpful to you.

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    ^^ I can confirm this DOES work - if I'm in a pissy mood and not feeling the best I frequent the bewbie cam a lot, crank up some music, sing, and talk to regs if they pop in, and guys will take me pvt also during bewbie cam. Works like a charm!

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    I lost my shit yesterday but logged off before. I don't think I've cried due to camming in a very long time but I broke down. Took the rest of the night off. Today is another day. You know, we ARE some tough resilient women aren't we?!

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    I also had a break down this week...twice. It's been so dead and I've had lots of regs blow me off. As soon as the tears start welling up I log out. One day I had a cry session so bad I couldn't even log back in because my face was too swollen and red. It happens to all of us. *hugs*

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    I'm all for a good cry and 'break down'. Doesn't mean you're weak, it means you've been strong for so long!

    Think of Oprah and her countless ugly cries!
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