Heya,
Long time lurker, first time poster and all that.
I am so, so sorry in advance if this is the wrong place to post or anything. I just feel really messed up, in a very silly way.
About one year and a half ago, I was in a manipulative relationship with an older guy (I was 1

. Pretending it would 'liberate me', he pushed me to do some camming on MFC. I didn't really know, I was very naive, and I did it for a few nights, for a little less than a months. I fully respect sex workers, but I do not think it was for me: I felt tense, ashamed: I barely talked, just posing naked in front of the camera. My ex kept most of the few hundred dollars I made, before I snapped, closed my account and left him.
I am absolutely terrified of recordings being online. I do not want to be a teacher; I would rather do something low key. I live in a rather liberal place in Europe, and I can't find any recordings if I google the screename i used... But still, it's scary. I am ambitious, I am about to graduate with a bachelor degree from university. Still, it could happen, couldn't it? Would explaining that situation change anything? I wasn't very popular, at all. No one has found out yet, at least that I know of.
I am sure it has been asked before and I am sorry. I just feel terribly anxious; sometimes as if my whole life has been ruined and that I'll never have a career, but then... Will I have a regular life, with a normal job? Or has everything just gone to shit?
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