So I've always been hairy bush trimmed a tiny bit, with shaved legs and armpits. It's my main source of income on cam and have always lost customers whenever I've trimmed too much before.
It's not that I don't like shaved pussy it's that it's not my preference. I never really into to have a shaved pussy not to mention it could severely fuck up cam work.
Anyway I guess I might be getting over emotional about this but in a job where it's kind of important for you to love yourself as yourself and stick to a niche, I've realized pretty much all my current lovers have a preference for shaved. To the extent where one guy has wandered off with a girl who I know is shaved (she's a stripper) and he's said to me how much better a shaved one is before going to fuck her.
Thanks to anxiety this had me thinking a lot of 'its ok i wouldn't pick me either' kind of thoughts and I self harmed for the first time in about 3 months...
Said guy is kind of stuck living with me for the next two months so absolutely no way to avoid. I feel stupid now...despite being a porn-watcher and knowing about the hairy pussy hatred this is the first time it's affected me in real life and I feel like...a slightly broken toy. Could be better. They've knocked off the price cuz it's not as smooth as the others.
I also feel dumb about moving in with a bunch of people I don't know. They are already an established group of friends and I'm kind of an outsider.
I know this is silly but I feel unwanted. Camming with guys doesnt seem to help, no matter how much they say they love hairy pussy now I just feel like it's a fetish that no guys my age share, it's just an old people thing cuz it was normal back then.




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