I started camming in January and I wasn't sure how it would affect my relationship. It turns out, my boyfriend was excited for me. Really excited. He wanted to know my name so he could find all of my adult work. As soon as I finished a clip, he was all over me trying to get me to let him watch it. I was kind of creeped out by it, so I asked him to cool it. That I wanted sex work to be my thing, and unless I want to film a clip together, to leave me alone about it. He admitted that he was being too excited and he promised to back off. I thought that was the end of it.
But then I started noticing things. I'd go into the kitchen while taking a break on Streamate and I'd see his laptop out of the corner of my eye and it'd be on SM (and I have my state blocked). Or while I'm online, I can hear him scoot a chair to the air vent to try to hear/see me. Recently, I'd be at my desk and hear a woman moaning that sounds a whole lot like me. Yesterday I shot a clip while he wasn't home but all the stuff was set up so he knew I had filmed. I left the room to eat dinner and when I came back he was acting suspicious. Walking around with his phone cord and pointing out random things in the room. I had been suspecting for a while that he was taking my clips from my computer but I didn't have proof. So I set up a camera to record while I was in the shower. And sure enough, he had been waiting until I showered to go onto my laptop and download the videos to his phone.
I brushed off the other things, but seeing him in the act just upset me so much. I feel violated and all my trust is gone. I did confront him and he tried to lie and keep bits hidden but once I told him about the camera, he came clean about everything. Even things I didn't know. My boyfriend is incredibly perverted and used to have a porn addiction that caused some problems early in our relationship. I don't know what to do. I believe we can get to a place where I can trust him again, but I don't want to do sex work anymore. I really love it; I'm just so creeped out right now. Should I stop until we get our relationship back on track?



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