This is my first time using this forum, I was on afc for a few days, but then the girl who ran the site was so rude to me and I just haven't been reaching out to any other camgirls since. But, this is too much and I need someone to talk to. I'm really depressed and suicidal, my living conditions are not good and causing me into a irrational mental state of depression and anxiety. I try my best to fake it on cam, but I've had such slow nights. Ive also scared off old customers, atleast 4. Granted, they were jerks and liars and weren't tipping anyways, but, I just feel like I should just suck it up, I just can't. I got called a bitch twice tonight, once while I was folding my laundry and a guy said, "oh you modeling that for me baby?" I said he was being creepy and he said I was being a bitch, and then the second time just for saying the room was lame, because I had been on for two hours and made less than $10. Like I'm tired of being called a bitch for just saying things like "you're being creepy/inappropriate/annoying/" or just sticking up for myself. I've seen girls straight up being bitches in their room, which is fine idc, but I just don't get why I'm a bitch for pointing out the obvious, that there's 300+ guys in my room, jerking off, and not talking or tipping. Like idk mercury must be in Satans ass right now or something. Oh and plus manyvids used my picture to promote their last contest without even asking me!! And then, I entered, because I figured I would atleast win best photo, since you know, they used a picture from that photoset without asking me as their promo picture, and they didn't even give me the $100 consolation prize. To make matters worse, the person they gave the prize to was doing the exact same pose as I was. I'm just done with everything and I can't get an apartment if I don't have proof of income I'm wanting to die, but I took a half of Ativan so I'm starting to feel much better, but stilllol D I'm sorry if this makes no sense, Ativan kicked in quicker than I thought it would.



lol D I'm sorry if this makes no sense, Ativan kicked in quicker than I thought it would.
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