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    This is my first time using this forum, I was on afc for a few days, but then the girl who ran the site was so rude to me and I just haven't been reaching out to any other camgirls since. But, this is too much and I need someone to talk to. I'm really depressed and suicidal, my living conditions are not good and causing me into a irrational mental state of depression and anxiety. I try my best to fake it on cam, but I've had such slow nights. Ive also scared off old customers, atleast 4. Granted, they were jerks and liars and weren't tipping anyways, but, I just feel like I should just suck it up, I just can't. I got called a bitch twice tonight, once while I was folding my laundry and a guy said, "oh you modeling that for me baby?" I said he was being creepy and he said I was being a bitch, and then the second time just for saying the room was lame, because I had been on for two hours and made less than $10. Like I'm tired of being called a bitch for just saying things like "you're being creepy/inappropriate/annoying/" or just sticking up for myself. I've seen girls straight up being bitches in their room, which is fine idc, but I just don't get why I'm a bitch for pointing out the obvious, that there's 300+ guys in my room, jerking off, and not talking or tipping. Like idk mercury must be in Satans ass right now or something. Oh and plus manyvids used my picture to promote their last contest without even asking me!! And then, I entered, because I figured I would atleast win best photo, since you know, they used a picture from that photoset without asking me as their promo picture, and they didn't even give me the $100 consolation prize. To make matters worse, the person they gave the prize to was doing the exact same pose as I was. I'm just done with everything and I can't get an apartment if I don't have proof of income I'm wanting to die, but I took a half of Ativan so I'm starting to feel much better, but still lol D I'm sorry if this makes no sense, Ativan kicked in quicker than I thought it would.

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    Damn girl, first of all, for afc, i left there too coz a girl was rude and i dont take shit from anyone anymore, so u did good leaving and coming here. Second, i said that already in another thread but im gonna say it again, not all girls do good on free chats as mfc, just move it away, i cant stand free chats and i dont have the mood or the age to stay there and dance for fuckers, so choose a site where u can stay in paid room and let the guys come in if they wish so. There are lots of sites where u dont need to stay in free: aw, ifriends, tricams, and many others....choose one u like and go. For the apt, im sorry to hear that u are in a bad situation right now, but u know, nothing lasts forever and at some point things will get better, just hang in there. good luck !
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    Is there anyone who could be your guarantor with getting your own appartment? This is what I had to do get my dad to stand as guarantor because they don't accept self employed status for i think 3 years or so in the UK.

    I agree you should branch out to different sites, if things are that bad then look into split camming with manycams, nothing to lose there are always options, if things are very slow think why.. how is your hussle, are you making effort in your appearance, hows your toy/fetish collection, could you offer some games/highest tipper etc i dont know but there are alwaaaays ways to improve your hussle!! check out other girls who do well and see how you can incorporate that! Make sure your shows make them want to come back to, be enthusiastic, dirty talk, mix it up different positions and acts etc

    Depression and Anxiety affects me too, i usually have a glass of wine or something first if im in a funk or if i cant cope with camming i just focus on behind scenes promotion, signing up to sites, networking, editing etc tbf this job is never ending theres always something to be doing !
    Good luck anyway!! Don't give up, stay positive and never stay stagnant always look for ways to improve, learn new fantasies etc then you will always be TOP xx

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    Hey sadbones, I'm sorry for your situation, I just want to say to you things will get better if you work on it!!! Stay focused and disciplined, no matter how hard it is. I'm talking from my own experience. First try other site, don't waste time on idiots, second don't let them get to you, they are pathetic losers who have nothing better to do. Take all advice from this forum, it helped me a lot with my camming. You can fight depression and anxiety, I'm sure of it, just be strong and keep going, find yourself some motivation, be healthy and don't let dark thought mess with your head.

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    Hey there , I'm really sorry for what's going on and I'm also sorry that when you reached out to people on AFC you were treated poorly. Hang in there things really will improve even though it might not seem like it now.

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    Sorry to hear about your situation SB. Stick with it, it will all work out for the best. Try using other sites, as I'm sure that will also help with your income a lot more.

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    Hi sadbones, I'm sorry you had an awful experience on ACF. Are you on MFC? If so, that may not be a good site for first-time cammers. Now I don't know how long you've been doing it for, but it it's your only site, you may want to try others out. SM is a good starter site for most cam girls. You may like it there since you won't the pressures of having 300 guys in your room begging you what to do. Also, look for ways to improve your shows but only do things YOU feel comfortable doing! If you're feeling anxious about camming, then you may want to calm yourself down beforehand. Meditate, yoga, take a walk, have a glass of wine. These could all help you out.



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    Please talk to a professional if you're feeling suicidal.

    Also, do you even want to cam? Camming is not exactly quick, easy money. There are plenty of other jobs you can do for proof of income if you don't enjoy camming. Jobs outside the home, as well as work-from-home jobs. You mentioned being called a 'bitch' twice in one night on MFC. On sites where you're in public chat/free chat, you're gonna get trolls like that, and you'll probably be hearing worse than that. On MFC I've been called the 'n' word, I've had some loser tell me he wishes he could hang me from a tree, and some guy on Streamate once told me he hopes I get raped, etc. You won't have to deal with that much abuse when you're in the private chat sessions or on the "paid chat" modes of other cam sites. Guys who talk all that shit are usually the freeloaders who don't want to spend money on you, or the cheapasses who think tipping $1 means they can demand all kinds of dumb shit.

    As SylvySinclair mentioned, you may like it better on sites where you don't have to deal with these free chat assholes. AdultWork, Cams Nude Chat, ImLive (but you gotta keep clicking the orange 'Temporarily pause free live chat' button), SkyPrivate, CamModelDirectory, LiveCamModelShows, etc. There are a lot of threads on here for you to read, and the very last one I posted at the bottom will lead you to the 'Other Work' section of this forum where there is a thread about other non-adult work-from-home jobs:

    https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/sh...-For-Cam-Girls
    https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/sh...m-or-streamray
    https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/sh...-ImLive-Thread
    https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/sh...ultWork-Thread
    https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/sh...ndent-Camgirls
    https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/sh...Payment-Option
    https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/sh...rectory-Thread
    https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/sh...tantPay-Thread
    https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/sh...From-Home-Opps
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    Well I usually do really good. I'm one of those girls who doesn't even start taking my clothes off until the tips start coming in, which I understand could be a problem, but it's worked for me so far. Idk just like ALOT of my regulars ended up being douches and they're all like oh I can't spend money and this one dude told me "I'm done with cam girls" then he came into my room with a different username as a purple. I went off on him later and I felt bad but he lied to me just so he could visit other girls and then came back to my room like I'm supposed to be cool with it. The other sites I definitely need to try, right now I'm on CB and not loving it. And thanks for ur kind words ur so sweet

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    Thank you baby, you're so sweet

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    Thank you so much for your helpful links. Depression and suicidal thoughts are sadly something I've had to deal with since I was a kid. I've tried meds and they just increased those thoughts more. I'm going to the doctor on Monday, and Ativan is working really well so I'm hoping they'll give me a script for when I'm feeling low. But I'm so sorry guys are such jerks, I've been called a HAMster because my room was a little messy and I'm kinda thick lol a "fake ass Mexican chick acting like a white girl" and have also had the occasional threats of rape, hiding under my bed, one man from Australia even reported me to the Australian fbi for cyber bullying and threatened to sue me for extortion lol it's a long story, but yeah I think I'm kinda over chats. I use CB btw and it's terrible, maybe I should try mfc?

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    My mother doesn't have very good credit, and I've just been camming on CB and it's been dead. Maybe I'll try mfc

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    You are getting far too caught up with these guys, letting them and camming have a real emotional impact on you. It can seem difficult when you are used to in 'real life' people being polite and respectful (cause hey that's how the world works right?), but you have to draw a line between work (cam) and reality. That's just what you do for money - those guys mean as little to you in your real life as the chaps in the bar chatting shit or eying you up that you'll never see again. Their words and their thoughts have no bearing on you. You must develop a thicker skin. Sorry to sound harsh but I think you need it right now. No one will swoop in and help you, you gotta do it yourself, and part of that is letting go of the stuff that doesn't serve you. If you're going to continue camming then use sites where free chat is not mandatory. Sites like mfc are good sites (VERY good!) But you must stay upbeat and confident and control your room. If you can't do that don't cam there, it will be a bad experience for both you and your viewers.

    Have you tried meditation? As little as 5 minutes per day will help you in your situation enormously. When you wake up, spend the first 5 minutes simply contemplating on what you are grateful for. Nothing is too small or insignificant here - you are grateful for having a loving family, you are grateful that you have food to eat, etc etc. If negative thoughts creep in that's OK, just keep thinking on what you are grateful for. Just from this small act you will begin to see positive changes in your outlook within as little as 3 weeks. When the fog begins to lift you will be able to more clearly see your options and what you need to do to help yourself. Keep up the daily meditation, build it up to 20 minutes and incorporate self protection visualisation and loving kindness emanation. I cannot recommend this highly enough as the best way to help yourself x
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