I'm 11 weeks pregnant. I'm going bat shit crazy. I spend most of my time insanely depressed, resenting my bb sometimes, or thinking about death. I'm not going to kill myself or anything sometimes it's just a comforting thought.
I am pregnant and alone with no family. I want my baby but I hate feeling like this and know that it's not okay. I feel like an awful worthless person when I resent my baby. I only really resent it when medical problems I have can't be taken care of that well because I'm pregnant.
I'm dealing with major stress. I might have to go to jail at the end of this month because I'm going to be late paying this court fees I have(I find out tomorrow if they will or not my roommate says they won't but idk). I have to find a way to move out of state and get housing. On top of all of this I'm sick as fuck everyday with nausea/ dizziness from hell that keeps me in bed. Then I fight with my sperm donor sometimes.
I really need some advice from people who are mothers or have went through the same thing. Most places I have tried to call and talk to it doesn't seem like they listen well with out shoving God stuff down my throat and other things. Mentally I'm getting more screwed up every day. I do have PMDD and maybe that plays a part in things?
Im extremely lost and I'm so fucking depressed it's hard to do anything at all. I know I shouldn't feel this way. I should be happy or something idk. Sometimes I wonder if my drug abuse (I last used meth in January of this year) has something to do with this idk..



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fwiw and good luck as you work through all of this.



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