This is my second time posting, but the first time I posted I wasn't too detailed about my situation.
I am currently 100% financially dependent on my partner, whom is married, but emotionally separate from his wife
From the age of 18-21 (2012-2015) I lived with my emotionally abusive mother, who also got physically abusive at one point. There were times she would literally use her size to prevent me from leaving the house. She was very controlling and the problems caused me to drop out of college as well as trouble with school when I was in.
Eventually I got fed up and left in summer 2015. At that point I had just had a surgery on a foot (it's fully healed now). While I was healing my mother tried to kick me out and became even more abusive. I've tried to ask my grandparents for help, and I was always told to talk it out. I even tried to see if I could stay with my high school English teacher of 3 years, but she never followed up so I went to couch surf with friends (who I met through my ma).
However, i was given the ultimatum by my mom either to stay with them or to go back home with her, and be subjected to even more abuse. I decided to couch surf with her old friends, whom were kind to me and essentially treated me like family. And eventually I bump into my current partner, who let me stay with them.
The relationship was not initially sexual, but I did initiate it and it was suppose to be a simple fling, so I do take responsibility on this one. I really did not want to go into a full blown relationship, but a year later, the guy has become nothing but a nuisance. He always says these gooey things, is a big talker and always says I'm the girl of his dreams, but I realized that the relationship has been dead for awhile. He also doesn't seem to be willing to work as he is usually hustling people for money or working these 20-60 handyman or vehicle repair jobs. The little money i made went straight to bills, so I never really got to splurge. He also seems to want sex everyday (but he's comprised that to 3 says a week) and even that just become too much for me. I'm doing it bc I feel obligated to and don't want to rock the boat, but he's just become this sex-crazed creep that I couldn't be happier to get far away from, which is why I'm literally willing to take the bus to anywhere right now.
The trouble will be moving out. I have no friends not supportive or trustworthy family here, and the only shelter here will let you stay no more than 2 weeks unless you work. But there are also no nearby strip clubs (I have no car nor liscense) and I live an hour from Nashville. I eventually want to study art in California and have wanted to for a bit, so I thought about borrowing a few hundred for a greyhound out there.
Right now I'm looking for somewhere with no required license, a city with a good public transport system, no rural or suburban areas and a mixed club. I am looking to work out west potentially because I don't want to be recognized in the club. My current partner says that he'll pay for the bus ticket, but I am probably going to just leave in the next few weeks. I'm willing to work with 500 to 800 a week starting, so I'm not looking for thousands off the bat, but that would be nice.
Sorry for the really long post, but I feel like of trapped right now, and I literally have no other options. Military is out for me (long explanation) and I cannot get any job fast enough to work myself out of this situation. I definitely need something immediate. Thanks if you read.



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