So in a few months (I'm about three months pregnant ) I'll obviously have to quit dancing for awhile and that terrifies me. Only job I've had as an adult that can really pay the bills and then some (over five years), and the thought of being dependent on a man is hair-raising. My husband is amazing and loving but I didn't exactly marry him for his earning ability. He's smart and hard working but the job he was counting on fell through and the job he has now isn't enough to support us by himself. I could do clips but that's going to take awhile to set up and figure out and then get paid for.
I have a sugar daddy who gives me 1000-1200 monthly for two visits per month. I kinda went over the line w him (no sex, but more than I know my man would be comfortable with) because I have an 8 year old and one on the way depending on me as well and they are my main priority. I grew up poor and know the value of money, I want to sock away as much $ as possible.
So yeah, am I a piece of shit? I feel extremely guilty, have problem sleeping. But on the other hand I'd also have problems sleeping if I knew we were broke as hell w two kids. I make more and yeah idk I'm torn.



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