Well I definitely need to move out by the end of the month so wish me luck.
Apartment building with constant problems, I cannot take anymore. Idc how slow cam is rn, I can improve my situation.



Well I definitely need to move out by the end of the month so wish me luck.
Apartment building with constant problems, I cannot take anymore. Idc how slow cam is rn, I can improve my situation.





When I ran across this great guy 15 days ago I was sitting across from him at my favorite cozy wine bar with a delicious glass of pinot noir & I thought..."he seems slightly boring"; I was so very wrong. He's passionate AF.
6 dates later and we are seeing each other exclusively where our first time intimate was at the famous Cooper Aerobics Center where we stayed the weekend at the hotel, enjoyed classes at the fitness center, and spent time at the spa. An awesome plus was an exceptional time at a local hookah lounge with very good google ratings.
I have been using the LOA to attain an more abundant income, new friends, and a healthy relationship. Seems like it helped me find a decent guy.
On my mind is gratitude. Sticking with positive thinking even when I felt like giving up has me so very thankful.
Sha





I just smelled my bottle of Sun Moon And Stars a few moments ago and all kinds of memories hit me. Perfume is good for that, but this one is special. I hated it when I first got a bottle years ago and then grew to love it. Cheers to memories and bad descisions. RIP Karl Largerfeld.





Meditation is crazy effective. Legit: 11 months of daily meditation and it's cured my severe asthma (no longer use both inhalers I was prescribed since 18 yrs old and I'm 41 now), increased my compassion level, and helped me learn to truly love myself.
I can even count on meditation to improve my mood. I don't remember why I started the practice, but fuck, I'm glad I did. Can even say it's been one of the best things that's happened to me my adult life.
Sha



Every time a cam customer asks me "what do u like bb?" I'm always about to burst out "Money" or "My bills paid and still some money left for shopping trips". Sad men don't like the truth, sadly.
There needs to be a cam site for guys with a sleep fetish. I need a nap so badly y'all



Had somebody ask a model friend of mine to sleep for 2 hours in a private show and he did it. He made over 200$ just to sleep and when he woke up he had 200 bucks in his cam account just to sleep. Lucky bastard LOL I never had somebody like this in my room before, still waiting...





Stand up comedy, I think, has helped me sleep better and longer. I've been watching stand up comedy at 7pm then I turn lights off and read with a blue light filter from 8-8:30pm. Legit: been sleeping about 9 hrs a night for like 5 weeks. And this dude Deon Cole is so fuckin funny I watched one of his specials 4 times LOLOL.
Sha





Anyone got $88 Million I can borrow?





My current wind down shows are anything with Monty Don in it. He's a master gardener in the UK. His voice is so soothing and I love gardening. He's got a couple of shows on Netflix. I've noticed I have better dreams when I watch him before bed. And yes Deon Cole is hilarious.





^^ Yes, there is something about a regular wind down schedule that just improves sleep. I engage in a guided self-hypnosis for sleep sometimes when I wake too early to get back to sleep and it's cause the guys voice is so soothing. I hear you.
Yeah, that Deon Cole is too funny. Have you seen his early stuff from the Def Jam?
Sha





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^^hahahaaaa DEAD!
I used to get irritated when men would ask for Skype or meeting up. Now I turn the shit on them.
"Nah man; that is against terma & can get me banned. This is my main source of income. You gonna commit to paying my bills every month?"
I get a "oh, understood" & can still get a show.
Sha





Sex is amazing in my 40s. In my 20s it sucked. In my 30s it got interesting. Now? Geez, it's the best. I can't even imagine what it will be like in my 50s LOLOL.
Sha



Yiiiiiiiiiiiiiikes I was caught lying to a very generous, long time whale on cam!! I started split camming and since he's basically obsessed with me wanting to help me out with my financial problems, I didn't tell him I split cam since that wold obviously disrupt our "relationship". Today I stayed online on the second site during a private show with him and he noticed the tiping noises...I had added him to my second site long ago but then stopped webcamming there, came back a few weeks ago due to financial problems, so I didn't think he would go check on me there!! Told him it was my computer making weird noises and he said it sounded like tip noises. Yikes mans not dumb o.O
Minutes later, whose username do I see popping up on my second site? HIM. DANGGG caught me lying...He didn't just caught me lying, he ALSO caught me receiving a few huge tips on MFC RIGHT AT THIS TIME. Buuuuuusted :|
I NEVER receive big tips on MFC so this was the first time and a huge, HUGE coincidence which I'm very happy about, but at the same time...I might have lost one of my biggest tipers ever who has sticked with me for so long.....I'm sad about it (not about him personally, he was very strange and OSBESSED with me. So I'm only sad about not receiving his money anymore, as gold diggerish as I sound, I am one in fact rofl) He is desperate to bring me to his country and marry him rofl, (which ofc will never happen but he keeps talking about it and I just shrug it off) that's why he was such an easy target to drain his wallet, making him believe I love him and like his attention etc.
He is usually very snappy when I talk to other people in freechat and tries to drag me into private shows to have me for himself.
I hate beign a liar in this industry, but sadly, it is necessary. Can't be 100 % honest since that would cost me my personal datas and stuff, not gonna risk that, even if it means beign caught lying. Worth it for the cash tho!!
I told him on kik that I'm sorry for lying to him as I suspected he wouldn't like me knowing that I split cam, he saw it but didn't answer. Welp, that's it with the long privates with him...If it's true and he really won't be back in my room forever, I also lost a stalkerish obsessed dude, so in conclusion, I don't mind that much. I have enough others who are in love with me and tip me big so xx
His fault for being so damn jealous over me talking to one guy who isn't him (: Can't make a living off of one dude anyways lol
Yikes this feels like a break up. Well, halfway tho, it's not like I shared any romantic feelings towards him anways.





A lack of sleep looks pretty bad on me. In two days I've slept only 10 hours when I usually sleep about 16-18. I feel like a zombie with rouge on LOL.
Sha
just apologise and tell him why you did that (finanical struggles-how you were not online on that site for awhile but life pushed you to do it). it doesn't have to be true but make it look like it was your only choice. play the pity card so maybe you can get 1 private or two out of him hahaha. i don't get these guys, i had a whale that nowdays just says i am owned by x cam site - and all this because i told him i can't risk meeting him up because i got bills to pay and i dont want my account closed haha. suree i will risk my account just to meet you BB.



I told him that and tbh it's not my problem if he's still angry about it - Moving on to my other big whales, your loss babehahaha
Time is money and I won't waste my precious time to try to get one dude back when there's plenty of goldfish in the camsea.
Guess what? BOI he came backkkkk lol he doesn't fails to amaze meeeeeeee such a desperate idiot xD I knew he wouldn't let me down hahahahaha
Edit: He came back into my camroom today greeted me like nothing happened, then made a passive aggressive comment called "Yea I am monopoly" after I asked people to not just sit and ignore me but also TIP AND TALK.
Bitch what was that comment from him?! I ignored his dumb ass and received a few nice tips which was a big fat "fuck you" in his face for his passive aggressive bullshit![]()
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My landlord is either bitter I'm leaving (I've paid a ridiculous amount of rent for a year) as she doesn't have anyone lined up to rent or she's severely overworked (she's put in 60 hours this week so far).
She's been rude our last 3 interactions. The room came furnished & she rudely stated I'd need to hang up all 30 something frames I took down so I could hang my own things up. Not going to happen. I'll clean, but that's where I draw the line.
I'm moving out in 3 days & thank God. She's given me a hard time over the 5, only 5, guests I've had over for a few hours in a year (yes...a year).
She's rich & has been plenty overbearing. I'm grateful to have my own place & sanity back in just 3 short days.
Sha





Does she live on the property? How would she know you've had guest?
I once rented a mother inlaw suite from this wealthy couple. It was perfect at first because I had an alley way entrance into the apartment. Outside of paying rent there was zero reason for contact. But then the wife wanted to make friends and things got awkward. She didn't work a regular job and was basically bored. When I started to push away she got mean and nit pickey. I felt bad but I wanted my privacy. If I had met her under different circumstances we could have been friends. I ended up moving 9 months, 3 months before the lease was up. She actually told me she was gonna sue me for the remainder of the lease. Her husband was like ignore her, run be free please take me with you. Lol Poor baby. All that money and she still couldn't find happiness.





^^I think trying to be friendly is one thing, but a friendship where she may have been seeking a lot of attention wouldn't have been healthy for you. I would have left sooner too. I'm an introvert and need my privacy and a lot of alone time.
She lives in the house as does her dying father. I've been plenty respectful. She expected me to check in with her in regard to guests (not overnight) and the first time she basically grilled me on who it was, how long I've known them, and if they're a decent human being. Yeah, it wasn't worth the hassle. I'm not sure where the hostility is coming from as both her father and she have been pretty rude lately. The tension is really thick here. I feel suffocated. I'm trying to stay positive, but I'm feeling some defeat here.
Sha
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