




Making rent this month is going to be an interesting challenge.
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I had my surgery one week ago and it turned out great! Started camming on monday again without any complications. Was shocked at first as when I had a first glance at it the next day when he changed the bandages I looked like a middle aged Asian man due to the fact I wanted a slightly uplifting nose and the droopy tip removed and my face was swollen like a dog who gut stung by a bee. But some days later my nose started to sink down slightly which is normal according to him and it started to look better and not like a pig's nose anymore.
Now the bandages are off completely and I'm just having a bit of a sticky band on it and its super swollen still on my nose but not the rest of my face anymore luckily as I'm attending a farewell party on sunday and I wanna look at least a bit decent LOL. There's not a massive difference from my old nose cuz its still swollen for now, but I can't wait to see the end results!
I'm just a lil concerned cuz when I tried to slightly remove a crust in my nose that is huge and blocks my airways I saw a white thread attached to it when I lifted the crust up so it was impossible to take off the crust completely and it gave me a lil heart attack. I put the crust back to its place and applied some crust disolving cream and nose spray the doctor gave me. I hope when the crust falls off the thread is still there and hasn't come off completely??? I'm supposed to have this thread inside my nose until it disolves itself after a few months eventually. So its supposed to stay inside of me. Idk if its a bad sign that it came out of my nose a little. But my mom says that this is normal? Idk man I never had a surgery like this before but this sight was scary to say the least.





^happy for you.
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I'm sleeping a LOT lately. Stupid night shift. It brings me so much money but it makes me sleep 12 hours a day. No more workout lately, I gained weight and I overall feel sluggish and lazy. I may make money, but my mood is sinking. Now I got a PS4 console and I am playing a lot on it, as well. At least I replaced that with comfort eating, but instead of feeling happy because I LOVE GAMING, i feel worse because I know I could have worked out or worked more. Cuz lately I only work 5-6 hours per shift wich is. BAD. REALLY BAD.
I can't wait for January, to make a visit to my doctor, do some blood work and other tests and get some fucking vitamins, because I can't stand sleeping so much anymore.
I feel like life is passing by me!!!





Yay I finally perfected my chocolate chess pie from scratchI didn't use to know how to cook a few years back & relied alot on others & fast food/expensive take out. It's a good feeling when you can make your own delicious dinners & desserts anytime you like
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"Alot of people are afraid to say what they want, that's why they don't get what they want"~ Madonna
"Respect is a dying art"
"Philosophy is the talk on a cereal box"





Anyone here ever use this site? https://www.eshakti.com/ You can custom order dresses and rompers. The reviews on YT are a little inconsistent. I've never heard of them before but it sounds great being able to pick your hemline, sleeves etc without paying extra.
There Instagram https://instagram.com/eshakti?igshid=1qyr10y8dgzpz




I just realized if I could somehow get my hands on $800 bucks I literally could get out of camming (at least SM, free crap) and focus on simply being a PSO but that is never going to happen so yah, fuck my life.





I love Holidays but I can't wait for shit to be over because I'm so fucking TIRED. You know you're tired when you don't even wanna count money. #tired #tiredhoe #overit #overithoe





This is one bad bitch! 2020 vibes/mood!
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I decided tonight that picking up pizza and cheating on my diet for the second day in a row would be a great idea because after camming so many hours the last 2 days, who the fuck wants to dirty the kitchen and dishes and cook? Not I.
Now I'm tired, feel like I'm 7 months pregnant from bloat, and I didnt even eat that much, and I'm uncomfortable and my back hurts.
Anytime I do stuff like this I remind myself, this is why I'm on a diet, this is why I fast, because I dislike this feeling, and its a reminder why NOT to eat this bullshit anymore. I did this to myself, now I get to suffer. lol












I do sometimes when I eat something that isnt good for me but I realized it wasnt the pizza, my stupid ass got a chocolate milkshake from mcdonalds when I got a mcchicken for the baby, lol. no wonder. feeling better now! but it was definitely an uncomfortable time online for a few hrs there. i LOVE omad though its done wonders for me and fits my dedication/schedule/life, etc. Ive lost like 50lbs so far!








Oh, milkshakes and frappe do the same to me.
Congrats on the weight loss and for doing OMAD, I can not do OMAD, too much for me but I've lost 45 lbs in an year with 16:8 and occasional 18:6 and eating whatever I wanted so I'll take it. I never thought it was possible to eat whatever and lose weight haha. Stalling now but I'm in no rush and I made IF my life style so I'll lose the last lbs at some point, not much left to hit normal BMI, only 6 lbs. IF feels so good, isn't it? I'm addicted!




OMG yay! Thats awesome!! Congrats. IF IS addicting and its lovely! I have 36lbs left to my goal but also not rushing, the past few months since I got back under 200lbs Ive dabbled with 16:8 and 18:6 a few weeks here (I originally started with 16:8 and moved quickly to 18:6 then 20:4 but I would find myself not wanting to eat at dinner so I switched to OMAD instead) and there but I get my best results from OMAD. When I typically do the other I tend to over eat and snack too much between cam shifts, which results in me MAINTAINING my weight which is excellent, but I'd prefer to lose, if even 1lb per week, etc. Plus it fits well with all my hrs on cam, not having to make food, and I look forward to sitting down and eating dinner (and think about dinner all day, lmao) with the family and enjoying that time also.![]()




Yeah, at some point it's stalling with 16:8 and 18:6 as I've been maintaining for a while now but as you just said, it's excellent because I was never able to keep the weight off after losing, eventually put back double. Even if I'll stay here and not hit my goal of a normal BMI I'm still pleased and happy. I'd lose what's left if I could do at least 20:4 but that wouldn't be sustainable long term and later getting back to 16:8 I will over eat, I know myself. It's best to do what fits you. Either way IF is the best life style one can get.
I am beeing a lazy ass. The traffic is amazing but all I wanna do is log off. You know that feeling when you are in school and vacation is almost there ? That's me waiting for my holidays vacation hahahha ! I feel guilty that i do not take advantage of the great traffic but I deserve to cut myself some slack LOL !





Marina there's a romantic comedy on Netflix called Christian Mingle. I haven't watched it...not sure if I ever will, but it made me think of you. ♥️☺️





I am so happy to be playing with my pet rat tonight & last night. He doesn't technically belong to me but I treat him as he is my kid, it's so freakin adorable! <3
A year ago you couldn't pay me to get close to a rat much less think they were cute. Now I'm totally playing with him & petting him ,getting over my irrational fear slowly but surely.
"Alot of people are afraid to say what they want, that's why they don't get what they want"~ Madonna
"Respect is a dying art"
"Philosophy is the talk on a cereal box"
^ i caught a mouse once.
That mf freaked me out at first cause I’ve never seen one live, or even dead for that matter. They are really more scared of humans than the other way around. The poor thing was trembling and shaking thinking i was going to kill it
But I set it free and it was kind of cute





"Alot of people are afraid to say what they want, that's why they don't get what they want"~ Madonna
"Respect is a dying art"
"Philosophy is the talk on a cereal box"
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