Hello there fellow cam girls~
I have been already talking about my muslim best friend before. I have only her as a friend and I'm about to lose her I think. The way she sees sexworkers is just heavy. She would NEVER accept what I do for a living.
So a bit of storytime...
We used to work at the same place before, and we both hated it, which is why we became friends in the first place. Now that I got kicked out since months and I'm camming for a living, she always asked what I'm doing for a living. I'm telling her that I'm a bartender in a bar in our small city. I told her the name and now as much as I heard from her and friends, she tried to visit me a few times with her other muslim friends, but of course, since I don't work there, they never found me working there.
My friend tolerated it, that I was half naked in the newspaper months ago for winning a sexy photoshot, but she wouldn't tolerate what I do now! So she also seems to want to see any proof for my workplace. Tonight she asked me about photos HOW I am working. I told her after ignoring her question for some hours that I can't show her any photos because while work time there's no way I can use my phone and when I have break time I'm in an another room. The thing is even while camming (aka. how I tell her while "my work shedule") I'm texting her sometimes, which she is also suspicious about. My friend even told me once "You know, you sound mysterious about your job and all" which makes me believe she has a tiny clue that I'm lying to her, somehow she probably thinks that I have a reason to lie to her, which is true. But it also seems she wants to know it so bad.
I tried to talk about my mom about it. She told me to tell my turkish friend that I'm not working there anymore but in another place in a bigger city, where she never goes, which isn't a bad idea after all. But wouldn't it be suspicious to say "oh I got fired there" and to just continue to lie to her?? Also then to tell her another name of another bartender place so she can go there with her friends again "spying" on me? Or she forces me to take her over there?
My muslim/turkish friend is a kinda control freak also, she even wanted to read my whatsapp messages between my mom and me many times which I think is sick, but she accepts me the way I am with my depression and my mood swings so I suppose I have to accept her controlling problems and sometimes harsh behavior too. She is the first person in my life who I can trust but thanks to her strict beliefs (her parents aren't strict at all, but she is) I absolutely can't talk with her about it. We never talk about sex or anything related to it in general, sometimes we make small jokes, but we just both don't like to talk about sex al all since she also wants to stay a virgin until marriage and I'm accepting that also so I'm not giving her any ideas of how sex could be or masturbation etc. Oh and she also hates on homosexuals while I'm bisexual. I told her once that I was bi and she reacted a bit disgusted but after some time I told her I would never marry a woman and that it was just a phase, which is a total lie again. When I'm out with her I can not wear high heels, because she told me "it's for special things only like a wedding" and that I look slutty in them! Well then are all the other women at night also sluts who wear high heels for going to normal events?! I sometimes don't understand her but as I said I can accept it all and adjust to such special situations with her, but if she would know my job, I know that she wouldn't do the same for me.
So if you are or were in a similiar situation, what did you say to your friends to not tell them what you really do for a living? My life is difficult enough right now and she just adds more problems on my already big problem list...



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end of story. You have one life to live, just like your friend and everyone has their own. Please don't waste another second worrying about what others think about you, or put your true self/feelings on hold in order to keep so.eine in your life. If they can't accept you for yourself (not your profession); she can go kick rocks. Her religion and relationship with her god has nothing to do with you, and since she's not paying your bills, your profession has nothing going to do with her. 


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