I spend a lot of time thinking about this. In the end i feel like I'm just going crazy because of the thoughts i get.
I spend a lot of time thinking about this. In the end i feel like I'm just going crazy because of the thoughts i get.




I know there is an after life like I know the sky is blue. I have had experiences for as long as I can remember. I rarely see things but I hear people talking and have been physically touched and one memorable occasion hit so hard that I had a bruise the size of my hand on my thigh. And it's frequent. Like every other week at least. Being a medium/psychic/intuitive/whatever runs in my family, like we apparently have records of it going back to at least the 1800s, when some of my ancestors were associated with the Spiritualist movement, which I actually didn't know until a few years ago. That was so reassuring to me. I don't find it frightening anymore, just annoying sometimes. It's like they know that I can tell they're there and I have to ask them to please leave me alone. I also knew my mother was going to die a month before it happened when I was younger, and a few years ago I knew my father was going to die a week beforehand. There was no reason to think that was going to happen in either case but I just knew. I was with my father as he was dying and I would sense someone next to me and feel like it was my mother or my grandmother and then he would start talking to them.
I'm not at all religious and I don't know what exactly happens when we die but I know without a doubt that we don't just disappear into the void. I do kind of feel like we just move to a different plane of existence or dimension to continue our journey. I feel like we are all here to live our lives for a reason. My stepmother took her own life and I have never once sensed her (and I've sensed every other one of my loved ones who have passed and several others that I never knew in life) which troubles me and makes me wonder sometimes if she had to come back to live her life again in some way because she didn't complete her "work." That might be a version of hell, I guess? I've struggled with periods of being suicidal myself, even as recently as this past summer but never sensing her is definitely one of the things that has helped me fight through it. I know people might think I'm totally nuts (my partner has experiences, too, not as frequent or blatant as mine but frequently enough to where he respects how I feel about the whole thing) but if they'd experienced what I've experienced my entire life, and what numerous relatives of mine have experienced, then they'd know it's real, too. Cassadega is a Spiritualist camp close to where I live and at some point when I actually have free time I want to go there to learn from other people who have had experiences like mine. They take it very seriously and it would be nice to be able to something with it other than be annoyed when I'm trying to make dinner or do laundry.


I am a strong believer in the powers of the occult and magical workings(white & black magic) to get closer to deity and I totally believe in life after death! I believe the soul lives and just seeks out another body to be born in after death. I think death is just a return to reality and an escape from this false reality and world we live in. When we die we "wake up to reality" like the movie the Matrix. I am mainly a christian Gnostic but I also practiced a little satanism with that as well. I believe all religions worship the same God. I incorporate a Mix of Christianity, Judaism, Islam, Satanism, Wicca, Taoism, Hinduism and Buddhism into my religious beliefs. Studied all major religions in a religious studies class in college my professor was a Gnostic who believe all religions were connected and followed her example ever since. When I am doing ritual black and white magic I feel closer to diety,calmer, and can totally escape the pains of life especially if do magical workings. When I am not doing magical works I feel like I can't keep calm and am overemotional. Doing a lot of Middle Pillar and banishing rituals helps keep my emotional health balanced. Magical workings with long sessions of meditation does a great way to totally escape from life and get back to deity. I practice mainly white magic, but will practice some black magic to relieve some of my anger and it is a great stress relief. Sometimes I have meditated all day after doing hours of magical work and felt myself have an out of body experience and feel God's white illuminating light all around me, absolutely amazing!
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I believe there is too much going on here to be nothing when you pass. I can't even comprehend all that is here. Planes flying, the vastness of the ocean, how everything is perfectly in sync. ( like the solar system).
They say matter can neither be created nor destroyed. So you exist in one form or another.
I haven't had any NDE's or paranormal exp., but I have has ESP here and there.
I'm scared of death. I have things I want to do here. Plus there is no for sure that the other side is real.
Religion is made up by man to control other men. It works. Just like a cult. I despise religion.
I still believe there is someplace else you go. Too many coincidental stories. Afterlife-reincarnation- yes. Too many people with stories about places they've never been in this life with facts that could be checked. I believe in astral projection.
I also believe we aren't allowed to "know" for sure about the afterlife b/c alot of us would just want to kill ourselves to go back.
So what are we here for? Must be for something.
I for sure as hell don't want to come back. People are evil.I'm only coming back if the world resembles Pleasantville.



I may not be smart enough to do everything, but I am dumb enough to try anything. ~Geoff Johns



I think when I was 15 I concluded the lack of an afterlife. Me and my friend had just shoplifted a good amount of stuff from a shopping center. As we were organizing our loot we discussed a new drug I had yet to try "whip its."
"You've never tried one before Sean? Nitrous-Oxide dude! Shits the bomb man! When I did it it was out of a tank my friend stole from the back of a dentist office, but the first couple seconds of a whip cream bottle is actually nitrous gas."
With that being said, and it just so happened we were right behind a grocery store, I walked into the store without explanation. My friend followed me curious as to what my initiative was. I went straight to the dairy section of the aisle and without paying for it opened the can of whip cream and sucked in the nitrous gas.
"Sean whhaaaaatsssss it liiiiiiike... Seaaaaaannnnnn. *slow mode deep voice laughter*" and back to reality I came. It was at that moment I concluded all the thoughts, all the memories, and all my experiences were merely organically stored within the depths of my brain. And that with my death all that would vanish. I could be wrong, I certainly hope I am not. For an eternity of anything would be hell in and of itself
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A physicist weighs in:
We many not know exactly what consciousness is, but physicist Sir Roger Penrose believes that it's just a packet of information stored at a quantum - or sub-atomic - level.
Sensationally, he claims to have found evidence that this information, which is stored in microtubules within human cells, leaves the body after a person dies.Sir Roger has argued that when a person dies temporarily, this quantum information is released into the universe, only to return to the body's cells if the host is brought back to life.
He argues that this explains why people can have near-death experiences, and believes that this quantum information amounts to a soul leaving the body.
The physics expert said: "If the patient dies, it's possible that this quantum information can exist outside the body, perhaps indefinitely, as a soul."And Sir Roger is not alone in believing this, since his theory is backed by researchers at the renowned Max Planck Institute for Physics in Munich.
Experts there argue that our physical universe is just a perception, and that once our bodies die there is an infinite life beyond.





My current beliefs are closer to scientific atheist BUT I've had some very hard to explain personal experiences in my lifetime.
My favorite was after the death of a close relative. He was a mentor/protector to me in all ways. I keep his spirit alive by living as he did.
Also a close friend of mine is a Tarot Card reader & her predictions are surprisingly accurate.
In short, people just have to form their own opinions for themselves.




Death had been something I have always wondered about, but after experiencing a death in my family not too long ago and I was desperately searching for answers.
I cannot say I am religious or atheist because I truly do not know what is out there. But I often wonder if it is like trying to remember what it was like before you were born.
After having nothingness of death do you come back into consciousness again? I also wonder if it is different experiences for different people after they die, such as what they believed in while alive (some people go to heaven, others are reborn, varies depending on their faith).
Here is an interesting take on existence that I have taken a liking to:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mMRrCYPxD0I
I've read a lot of stories online and one of my fears is if some people experience what they see while "dead" was the result of resuscitation efforts. For example, if a man went into cardiac arrest and an EMT is trying to resuscitate the man, the chest compressions are forcing the heart to pump blood to keep the body alive. Is the blood being pumped to the brain responsible for what is seen just before death? But if so, how would it be that the man would be able to see everything clearly going around the room and how the EMTs look like? It is a wonder.
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