Hi everyone,
I'm new to this site and figured I'd post this thread to see if anyone can help me out.
I'm 21, Canadian, and have been escorting for about a year now on the side as well as working full-time and being in school. I like escorting because I like the fantasy of having sex for money, as well as BDSM, and I think I do a great job of pleasuring an older man and having fun with him. I just recently did my first porn shoot in California in November, and I made 5g American doing so.. which helped me pay off some debt. Everything was safe and fun, I don't regret it.
I haven't told anyone about doing porn or that I've been an escort. My best friends have no idea and they have noticed that it seems like I've been acting distant.
But the truth is that i don't know if i can trust them with this. They're both in perfect relationships, live perfect lives and rarely even drink. I feel like i'm the fucked up friend whenever i hang out with them. But I had to do what I've done because a) i needed the money and b) I have no outlet for sexual desires and I'm a very sexual person by nature... i figured if I'm going to have this sex drive i might as well get paid for it. Lol.
I feel really strongly about being open and honest about sexuality, and I wish I had someone to talk to about all of this. Lately i've been feeling really lost between what I am and what people think I am. I have absolutely no shame in what i've done, but I wish I could be honest about it. I feel like this secret is weighing on my shoulders.
How do you ladies balance your life outside of work? Are there certain things that no one knows about you?
Thanks for listening xox
BlondeGirlStrangeWorld



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do you ever worry that working in the sex industry will affect your career? And how quickly would you mention that you've done sex work to a boyfriend? Wouldn't they be upset if you kept it off and didn't tell them? Sorry I have so many questions lol I've never had a chance to voice them for a whole year. Personally I find it nearly impossible to find an open-minded guy where I'm from. I like what you said about keeping a part of your life to yourself; I try to gauge what kind of a person someone is before I say much.
Like would I just message someone I think works in the industry on fb and ask them to go for a drink or girls night or something? Where did you find your friends in the industry?


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