Hi girls.
I'm struggling with life at the moment. I've been dancing for 4 years. I finally met a guy that doesn't give me any hassle about work. But he's terrible with money to the point where we sometimes doesn't even have enough to get a cheeseburger from McDonald's.
I feel like I'm the main breadwinner. And because I feel guilty about my job I like to pay for things. To the point where I've got myself into debt.
I didn't mind paying for stuff and almost supporting him, but I recently found out he has been messaging other girls on Facebook. These aren't friends, but just random girls. He won't show me the messages and said that I was being paranoid.
I'm already under a lot of financial pressure and now he's doing this. Also today he receive a pay cut at work and phoned our landlord and told them we can't afford to pay for the house anymore. So effectively we will be homeless within a month.
He's going to quit his job. So I'm now under even more pressure. February isn't a good time for dancing so the whole situation is worrying.
I never used to be like this. I was successful, had savings, and confidence. And now I feel broken and stressed. I've been suffering anxiety with all the money worries.
He's also got a child from a previous relationship who he doesn't see. But he said its the mums fault and not his. I don't know what to believe now or what to do.
Part of me is tempted to finish our relationship. And I go off and travel like I've done before. I just feel like I've lost confidence and the belief in myself to do it.
Sorry for the long rant of a post. Just needed to vent and try and make a way forward.



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