So I just left a 2 & a half year relationship a week ago from this guy that ended up being both verbally & emotionally abusive to me (a few physical fights also). I felt addicted to him in some weird way even tho I wasn't really into him anymore, I'm assuming it was familiarity is why i stayed way longer than i should've. Anyhoo so since this break up I haven't really missed him like I did before when we broke up for 3 months about a year go & he was with someone else like right away as I was also. Instead I've found myself happier without his constant shit talking of my work (camming, sexting) & being independent having my own opinion & freedom aside from his.
So ever since my new found freedom I've found myself slipping into old patterns such as going out clubbing & getting drunk finding cute guys I bring home & fuck them then discard them like newspapers. I'm having safe sex of course but I don't know what I'm wanting right now in terms of meeting someone new. I'm happy to be single but I can't help but end up slutting it up hardcore to fill a void of being alone now as well as enjoying the attention from guys he never gave me. Is this normal?
Since the breakup I have been more productive & working more as well as saving in hopes to travel again & move away from where I am living currently. I no longer want him in my life thankfully bc it just hit me that he never ever enriched me or my life in any way, he was probably the most negative person I've ever known.
Any of you going thru this or ever have?