I really love dancing, and I've been dancing now for about 5 years on and off. It's so much fun when you get the right customers and everything is wonderful and the money is flowing. But when it's bad, it's BAD. As the years go on- I'm tired of the mansplaining, rude men, and men who expect things to be done for them (for free and for money!). I used to play along and I just have no patience anymore. I really tell myself that it's just a fantasy and you entertain them to get in their pocket and they go home alone and poor. haha.
Just lately, I have been harboring a lot of hate for all men outside of work- the ones on the street and in the same shared public space as me. I don't feel paranoid or scared, just annoyed and like I know deep down how they all really think. When I take breaks from dancing, I feel like I can see the world from a better perspective. When I go back to work, it really is a twist in mindset and I deal with it emotionally during, and after my shift is over. That all being said, I really do love dancing. I love performing on stage and I even do like the interactive part. It's just the majority of men that open their mouth and say something misogynist or dumb. Maybe I just needed to get this all off my chest. Would love to hear your thoughts on it.
*edit- I have a long time partner, and it doesn't affect our relationship. Just how I view the world. He's very understanding and listens to me vent.



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