Hello, I'm new.
While I've toyed with the idea of dancing since adolescence (I'm 30 now), I've only gotten serious about it this year. I have debts that are beginning to mount and my day job simply isn't cutting it.
I spent all day today preparing to audition at a club not far from my home. I got there (I commute by bus) and realized that I forgot my I.D., so I had to go home. I talked myself into attempting to go back, got outside and became frustrated because I couldn't find my bus pass. I missed the bus...and found my bus pass in my pocket. I gave up and have called it a night.
The point of that story is that I cannot let go of this terrible anxiety about auditioning and stripping in general. I think it was so bad tonight that I ended up blanking out and making stupid mistakes. I am not totally comfortable with my body (my bum is somewhat darker than the rest of my body - how embarrassing), but mostly, I'm very shy and easily overstimulated. In other words, I'm afraid that I won't dance well or will be noticeably awkward due to stress (noisy, busy environment; having to concentrate on moves, not falling, etc) and fear (of rejection).
I'm going to try to give it another shot tomorrow, so if anyone can spare some words of encouragement, thanks!


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