
Originally Posted by
xCamLovex
Hi Ladies,
So, my birthday is in a few days and it also marks the 3rd year I've been doing adult work.
I started camming on MFC, CB, and SM. Then, I had my own site on Model Centro. I was very inspired by the idea of being a entrepreneur and working from home. Maybe y'all can relate but I had bartended, served, worked 8-10 hour shifts, 6-7 days a week, retail, management, you name it! I always did pretty well in everything, but ultimately I was super unhappy because of the long hours, little pay, and never being home.
I was (and still am) inspired by cam models, loved how sex positive, and entrepreneurial the industry is. At first, I loved it. But, I realized no matter how hard I worked at it, it's not me. I definitely improved, but still, it wasn't the best fit for me. Since then, I've had my content ripped and put on sites still till this day no matter how hard I've tried to get it removed, its been years and its still up.
Now, after three years of doing camming, I have an opportunity I see for myself that isn't in adult work. It took me some time, but I realize I am good at something else, and I love it. I can see myself growing from it, and improving my health and well being. It allows me to get sunshine and be outdoors, which really helps my anxiety.
But, I am shrouded in the reality that if I take this career change, I will one day be noticed and someone on YouTube will be like "didn't you used to cam model?" I am not ashamed of my adult work, but what I want to pursue has nothing to do with sex. Many of the relationships I've built in this new phase of my life have no idea that I've done this work. I'm slightly hesitant to put myself out there because of the "OMG there are videos of me naked stripping for tokens on a free tube site right now...."
I would say I'm beyond inspired by seeing Cardi B own every phase of her life past present and future. And it's really made me think...well, I can do this. I love what I've learned from the Adult Biz, but I'm older now, and I want to do something else. The money I've made and saved from the Adult Biz can indeed fuel this next step in my life.
So, any advice on how I can move on from the fear? Or how I can own it if it comes up?
Has anyone made this transition or thinking about it?
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