Tl;dr I have asthma and shitty general health, am scared to go into a germfilled work environment even with basic precaution due to this deadly flu outbreak in the US. But I'm broke and have to feed myself and others. Need advice, pep talk, something.
So basically the title summarizes my problem. The flu is really bad this year, people are dying and I'm a stripper with moderate asthma and I have always struggles with a low immune system. I'm honestly terrified to go into work because customers breath heavy, spit when they talk and are generally not that hygienic. I can't predict everytime they might lick/kiss my chest and move away quickly enough. I'm worried that I will lose money by giving dances that are less intimate (no heavy breathing in their ear etc) and I've thought about asking them in advance to absolutely not lick me or kiss me (I don't allow that anyways but I thought maybe if I tell them instead of just move away it would cut down on it) but again, idk if that will hurt my money.
Even aside from the customers, not all of my co-workers are extremely hygienic and routinely come into work sick. It would be unsexy to wear a surgical mask in the club right??? Haha kidding...Not really. I wash my hands and rub myself down with rubbing alcohol constantly but all it takes is inhaling too close to someone else's contaminated air just once. I know I sound crazy but when I get sick, I get very very sick. Normally I have money saved up for these situations, but this timing is awful and literally have January's rent and $60 to my name. I have a husband but he only makes $400 every two weeks and only has enough money to cover his half of the rent. (The holidays messed with the pay schedule so that's why he's broke too) To make matters more stressful my brother in law is living with us for a few monthes while he trys to find a job and so we are paying for his food as well as our own, so money is very tight.
I've thought about trying to sell nude pictures online but I have never done that, don't photograph great and I wouldn't even know how to go about finding buyers. I just feel very stressed out and anxious, it doesn't help that I have panic disorder (that I take meds for) and so I constantly second guess myself, but I do know my body and healthy people have been dying from the flu this year. Anyways I'm rambling and could just use some advice, kind words, anything.


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