I have really severe depression, anxiety and ADHD. I won't lie a medication (SSRI) for depression helps me the most with that (plus exercise), but barely puts a dent in my anxiety or focus. For me routine, and reminding myself, everyday, that the night is going to go by anyways, whether I cam or not.
As well as this, I remind myself that I am going to be really down on myself, if I don't cam when I could have. That works the best, because I have taken the night off due to anxiety and felt like shit about myself for it, so many times, that it's not worth it to me to go through that mental routine again. It has also taken me several years to get to the point where I have my defenses up strong enough not to let people who are being mean/ bitter/ angry get to me. If I genuinely feel really vulnerable emotionally or mentally, I won't go on that night. I realize everyday that those people don't have the rich life that I do, and that, that is likely what drives that kind of pathetic behavior.
I say to myself.."I am going to be awake and ready today, for X amount of hours. Of those hours I want to make sure I cam 15 mins of every hour, or 20 mins of every hour", or whatever the number is I need to make my goal. Then I do it. My anxiety if I don't do it, will actually be worse than the anxiety/ regret that I experience when I am on cam.
Also I won't lie, sometimes just telling some asshole in my room to fuck off, when I need to, helps me sleep better at night. I know it's better to ignore trolls, but when my emotions get to a certain level of boiling, I don't have any shame in lashing back or really stinging out at someone who deserves it.
Anyways I hope that helps. If you ever need someone to talk to, or share motivation with, just message. Several of my best friends also have very severe anxiety, I know how difficult it is to break through. Also if you have not already read the book "Feeling Good" by Dvid Burns, I would recommend it. A combination of the principles in that book, taking medication, and exercising is what helps me best through.
https://www.barnesandnoble.com/p/fee...MaAg-DEALw_wcB
OMG ramble over..I just saw how long this post it!
P.S. People post lots of inspirational links in many of the goal threads, which are really helpful too.
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