So I’ve been going through a depressive episode in my life lately and one thing I was thinking was “omigod why can’t I be more like my dancer self instead of me?” Me, the dancer, is confident, cuts off time wasters, feels great, is bubbly and I feel like I am being who I really am if I wasn’t so depressed in real life all the time. But in real life, I feel like I am none of those things most of the time. I feel like I want to kill off my old self and become “Melanie” but I wouldn’t even know how to do it as I separate my two identities and the real me let’s everything stress me out and bother me. Like I’m crying over something that happened months ago that I haven’t even thought about in forever!
sorry if I’m rambling or this makes no sense, I don’t get to see my therapist until Thursday and wondered if anyone else has felt this way and I thought writing it out might help me make sense of my feelings.



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Omg I’m cheesing so hard, running and getting my nails done are my favorite things. Thank you love




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