
Originally Posted by
trustfundkiller
I used to have the same mentality regarding coke, and it was fear that saved me. I'm now too afraid of having a heart attack or getting something laced with fentanyl to even think about snorting a line. I realized that it made me feel more confident and put me into a better mood in general. For whatever reason, I never got addicted or began to use it outside the club. It sounds like your relationship with it is similar to how I used to be. It makes you feel good and helps you focus. But there are ways to achieve that effect without the drugs. I really pep myself up before my shift and I enjoy the process. I like to take my time and do my hair and makeup to perfection, I like to pick out accessories and outfits, I listen to music that makes me feel sexy and puts me in a good mood, I use positive affirmations and visualize how I'd like my shift to go. It helps me to do yoga and meditate before my shift (you might be rolling your eyes at this suggestion but try it before you knock it).
Once I'm at the club I try to get that first dance as soon as possible. Once I've got 3 or so dances under my belt and I do a stage set, I'm in "stripper mode" and the rest of the night flows smoothly. I don't think there's anything wrong with having a shot or two while working, as long as you don't make it a daily habit.
Another technique that helps me with my anxiety is called "breath of fire" which is a breathing technique practiced in yoga. When you feel panic set in you begin to quickly breathe in and out in short breaths as if you were hyperventilating. You're tricking your brain by leaning into the anxiety and burning through the reaction rather than trying to suppress it. Once your body exhausts the panic, you'll be able to breathe normally. When you're anxious you'll find that you aren't breathing at a relaxed, steady pace.
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