So to preface this, I have been in therapy for a year and I spend a good deal of time processing the source of my depression and working through those things. I am on a low dose anti-depression medication and I have other goals and side projects going on in my life at the moment. Everything else is solid in my life at the moment.
Okay now to get into it. The biggest issue for me is actually getting to work in the winter. Once I'm there I'm 100% fine and in hustle mode. I used to work in Ohio with the ridiculous frigid weather so I always heard the constant feedback of "It's always bad season in the winter." "Store your money away for the holiday season." and "Only work the weekends during the winter, that's the only good money." These are my limiting beliefs still even though now I work in Vegas. It does get a little colder in the winter here and it is considered dead season to most Vegas girls until Convention Season starting in January. I personally still think the money is good here and it has been for me so far because tourist customers are awesome. Trying to replace all those bad beliefs with "When I go to work I will make money." But then my depression comes in the second the sun sets (at like 4pm now) and says: Don't leave to go to work because you're so comfy and warm at home, okay time to cry now!!, and my personal fav: just stay poor because you don't really need the money just don't spend your savings on anything but rent and you're fine.
AHHHH!!! This is holding me back so much and the two are intertwined. I'll make ultimatums with myself like buying myself something I've wanted when I go in and then typically feeling guilty later. But lately it's just been so hard to get in sexy mode when my depression gets the best of me and my beliefs about how bad money is in the winter. This may just be burn-out but I know the second it gets warmer out, I don't act like this towards work or myself. I know it's just seasonal depression and it sucks because I do want to work, it just feels impossible some days. Do any of you have experience with this and any advice? Thanks!!



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