DAMN!!! That sleep score is legit. You were on track!!!
And although your meditation was high it's still good as you were focused. Damn girl, feelin that shit!!!





DAMN!!! That sleep score is legit. You were on track!!!
And although your meditation was high it's still good as you were focused. Damn girl, feelin that shit!!!
Sha





Day 4 of a 21 day challenge to reprogram my subconscious for wealth and abundance. I listened to the Theta binaural beats with earbuds while streaming. It's uber relaxing and I get my time in for the day.
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Sha





This is today's session on the bike. I did a 5 min warm up, reset the bike for my 40 min HIT ride, then did a 5 min cool down and stretched. An avg of 151 for 40 min is good. That's def cardio and I need it. I've gained 3 lbs.
My problem is I do so good for two weeks (eat clean, zero soda, and no wine) lose about 5 lbs then fall off and eat some junk and drink wine so I end up gaining the 5 back.
UGH!!!
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Sha





^^^You sure it's not just water weight from the booze or something?





^^You know, it could be!
Sha





Got off on the wrong foot today and used this to get back on track...it’s my favorite meditation
Focus more on what you want than on what you don’t want




Just ran across "The Angry Therapist" podcast on Spotify. Listened to this episode on cam Abundance Vs. Scarcity https://open.spotify.com/episode/0XpQlr1dYO8oJFQq2yvCfc
It's bite sized listen, about 17 minutes. It's a good reminder.
Last night I had my cry of disappointment (keeping it real) to get it out of my system, journaled, hopped on here and I am glad I did. Sha you helped me to shift my focus![]()
Had a good night's sleep- sleep score was 89. Did my usual morning routine. Felt calm although my heart rate was high during meditation.
Today has been another slow day, I have accepted it. I did my best and kept my energy up.
Going to take detox bath and some self reiki before the reiki circle tonight. I'll be working this weekend- which could be a good thing (haven't worked weekends in a minute)





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Super dead in my room 1.5 hrs now. Decided to meditate after seeing 1111. Feeling better & getting back on.
Sha




The reiki circle was really good last night. I felt really relaxed afterwards- and so did some other healers. It was like having a full body massage done. My visions near the end of sending reiki were near psychedelic- There was this green light shining down, then everything started spinning with bright white light and this flashes of a rainbow.
I forgot to take my fitbit off during the session. You can tell when I started having the visions
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^^Right on! When I've done group meditation the vibe is so good and I'm usually far more focused and get really good heart rate stats. Yeah, I can imagine what the frequencies are like. Green? Money vibes?
Damn, those stats are rad. You were super focused and relaxed for the majority of the circle. Your heart rate was super steady. Interesting with that spike in there. That vision had you super alert haha. Made your heart jump. So cool!
Sha




^^^ lol that's what I am shooting for.
Green is also associated with the heart chakra as well. When I was doing self reiki before the circle- I had heavy energy at the heart. Which makes sense-alot of scarcity issues came up for me this week, past programming, blah...blah... blah.
I feel good today.
It was right on.





^^Ahhh yes, heart chakra. Speaking of chakras, I need to balance mine.
Really good to hear you're in good spirits. It's such a relief when a bad day is just that--one bad day.
That podcast was great BTW. I like when he said you have to practice an abundant mindset and there are ways you can think to do that. It was just what I needed to listen to.
Sha




Ran across this in my email so I thought I would share. This is a free four part workshop with Dr. Joe Dispenza and it includes a guided meditation. ( haven't done it yet will do this afternoon after I get back from walking the grandfurbaby.)
https://experience.hayhouseu.com/red...stiny-welcome/
His meditations are legit.





^^Great. I'll chk it out!
Sha





Got my anxiety free Cerebral Tea today. I'll be drinking a cup a day to see if it prevents derealization. I thought I had gotten over it, but it turns out not. If it works I'll link it here.
Also trying to quit nicotine vape. Bought a vitamin B 12 vape. I'll be using my nicotine vape less for the next 3 days & the vitamin vape instead. I'll post progress.
Sha
"The prize never goes to the fastest guy, it goes to the guy who slows down the least."
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It's pretty bad and almost everyone will have at least one experience with it in their lifetime. It's a form of dissociation due to large amounts of stress or anxiety. It's a coping mechanism I used as a child to deal with severe emotional trauma. It feels like the world is unreal: like things that are usually familiar feel foreign and unfamiliar. Your heart rate skyrockets and negative thoughts of catastrophe flood your brain. I have it once a week. So once a week I feel like I'm dying or about to die. That's not an exaggeration: it's really that bad. I have had Cognitive Behavioral Therapy which helps me cope with the symptoms, but it hasn't eliminated all episodes. I'm still on a mission for a cure.
The research states inhalation is fast acting and can give ppl the boost of energy they want quicker than the shot. I'll have to see for myself.
Sha
"The prize never goes to the fastest guy, it goes to the guy who slows down the least."
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^^Mos def! I have had 4 puffs today and feel really good, but I can't say it's all due to the vitamin vape as I'm super stoked with my earnings. I'll give a proper update tomorrow![]()
Sha
What kind of therapies/medication/tricks did you try or use to help yourself with your derealization? Starting to think my 'panic attacks' are actually derealization and I am truly sick of it.
How are you holding up with quitting nicotine? Its hard! I am going to try to quit smoking for the second time this month now. The vitamine vape sounds great!





You definitely can feel panicked. I'm sorry to hear you're having trouble too. Panic and anxiety attacks are horrible
I had CBT for 6 months and have some skills in Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT) and some skills in Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT). I do not take medication for it. I meditate daily and do yoga as well as exercise M-F. I eat a gut healthy diet and hydrate optimally. I try to get 8-9 hrs rest a night.
The best skill to practice is acceptance and just living life normally. I am really kind to myself when I have these episodes. I talk to myself like I would my best friend. I have been using box breathing during episodes which helps. I'll do box breathing for 10-15 min and feel slightly better.
I hear you: quitting is hard! I'm going to get 0 nicotine (just flavor) for my vape today and try that for a few days. I hope I can do it. How are you trying to quit?
Sha





I'm going to take today off to just self care. I plan to balance and cleanse chakras as well as cleanse my aura. Today I'll do a pink himalayan salt detox and eat clean plus hydrate optimally. I haven't had a day off in 7 days so it's time to rest.
Sha
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