




^^(((HUGS)))
Sha
Thank you dear <3 Hugs to you too <3 We will all get stronger together.
We and the world will heal <3 Let Love Rule <3
Just some words for everyone who is struggling right now.





^^Indeed! I'm currently grieving & feel you, but we will get through!
Sha





Synctuition is so wild! I've been meditating for almost 3 years & only fall asleep if I didn't sleep well or just did hard core cardio.
We'll I'm falling asleep to each track during meditation & having killer lucid dreams.
It's amazing. I feel so chill after each one too. Like I've meditated for an hour & it's only 25 min long!
UPDATE:
Had my second Reiki Healing session and damn, so glad for it! I feel well and she said my energy was better than last session. I still have some work to do on heart and sacral, but overall I'm good. Interesting she said she sensed a strong peaceful presence like rooted in the ground and like growing up into a tree (I think that's how she described it). I was like really? Cause to be totally real I've been massively peaceful during my Synctuition meditations haha.
I feel well despite the circumstances and I'm really proud of the fact that I've let my ex go. No calls. No wanting him back. I feel free.
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Sha
I want to to Reiki too! Going to do a session as soon as the lockdown is lifted.
Stay strong! I am proud of you!
Doing a little bit better today. Still can't sleep so I am waiting on a phone call from my doctor. I want sleep medication.
I am going to paint tonight. Always great self care for me, totally relaxing. Maybe get some glitters in there too. I still have glitter eye pigments I never use, so just throwing that on there, LOL. I want to make something abstract.





I bought a Magic Bullet for my break up so I could be healthier. Man, I love that thing! The smoothies don't taste the best, but they're healthy as fuck!
Today I did:
Half banana
Power greens
Blueberries
Ginger
Tangerine
Tablespoon Turmeric
Pumpkin seeds
Chia seeds
Lemon juice
Orange juice
That thing filled me up & I wasn't hungry til 5 hrs later. My plans are two large smoothies a day & one cooked meal. The energy I get from them is incredible too. It's like I'm on caffeine lololll.
Sha




I know this is going to be off subject but I'm purposely posting in here because the type of ladies who post in here are who I want to read this!
So my lease is up the end of February and I dreaded the thought of having to sign another year here after being stuck here 8 years thanks to my ex who said this would be temporary and then left me 5 years in to this promise and no way for me to get out of here. A new neighbor has moved in and had been setting poison out where my dogs potty cause she thought they smelled, another came out the door screaming at me because the other neighbor got her all riled up to over it (mind you we have been peeing in the same spot for years and its the only route I can take out my front door) and the kids here have been awful to and provoking my dogs and being so loud and rude and even went as far as trying to call my dogs out from inside my apartment to the porch to "talk to them". They also want to up my rent to almost a grand even though I have been bending over backwards by no longer going out my front door with them to avoid those neighbors, I've been paying rent all through the pandemic unlike other tenants and I've been here for all those years but yet they want to charge me almost a grand and I cant even go out my front door and I dont have a backyard for my dogs to play in.
Somehow the universe aligned and an old horse dentist of mine, who I was friends with, reappeared in to my life after almost 9 years of life just keeping us apart. She said her brother in law was moving out of her mothers house, heard what I've been dealing with and offered to rent it to me instead of letting it sit and rot as she lives in another area with her husband and horses. Its a two bedroom, one bath house, with a fenced in yard, carport turned storage/office space/laundry with another storage shed in the yard and I can have my chickens back home with me (I dont know if you remember how I had to find a foster to care for them when they got kicked out of the farm I had them and my horse housed at), though I may not want to remove them from the place I have them at yet as this place isnt exactly where I want to be with myself or them but its where we need to be to move forward from here. But just the fact I can is everything so I dont have to worry if something were to happen over there and I had to go get them. I wouldnt be stuck with what to do with them. They could "come home".
Its awful though. The guy ran it in to the ground (it looks like a scene from hoarders, its vile) and it does need to be fully renovated and due to that, she is offering it to me for only $700 since I would have to deal with them coming and going to work on the place most weekends. She will make sure the home is clean (to the best of her ability but I know it wont be my type of clean but I can work on that), she said I can come in before move in date and paint the walls and flea bomb since he had a dog that I saw itching non-stop, she will make sure its pet safe and everything is moved out. The rest will be as it comes but at least we can have it safe for me to move in to first and foremost. But I can pick the colors I want and design the place myself. I mean she has to like it to but she wont pick or do anything I dont like. I have a funny feeling if she was to pass, this home would be passed on to me and that is why she is saying this. She is almost 60 with no kids, has had a stroke and just wants someone to love this house as much as her mom did cause it is all she has left of her. The neighbor has a small dog and the fence is see through but I'm sure we could fix that and put a barrier up or once my dogs see this little dog doesnt care about them, they wont care either. Which leads me in to my long ass story of why I'm posting here.
My dogs are almost 14 and very sick. One has lyphoma cancer in his throat and we have been trying to stop the growth of the tumor with steriod injections since he really isnt a good canidate for surgury due to his age and other health issues. My other dog may be in heart failure and just has not been doing good since his battle with pneumonia the end of last year. Some days are good and some days are bad and I'm in tears begging them to hang on. I need you guys to please please send positive energy, reiki, the angels or anything you can this way for them to be alive on February 27th, to make this move to a home with a yard and experience freedom again! That is all I want, even if one of both only got to experience it for a very short time and it is all I have promised them for years. A yard. I could not live with that guilt if they both dont make it till then. I need this for them and I pray I'm making the right decision but I'm so unhappy here and its killing me I cant just open a door and let them go like they used to be able to do before I met that narc ex of mine. I want to give that yard back to them and we are so close but their health is so bad but they have to hang in there. The finish line is so close. Please please surround them in love and light and give them this yard in their last days here on earth.
I've been working on breathing to try to settle my anxiety, I'm trying to hold faith in the universe again (you guys know I hit a very dark breaking point not to long ago), I'm trying to visualize them in the yard, my business actually happening that I want to start, eating healthier and being at peace. But you guys mean the world to me to and I'd like to reach out for some extra push to the universe to get them there for me.
That is beautiful Sha! Painting is so relaxing isn't it?
Izshadow, I am sorry to hear that! Sounds like a really difficult situation. It hurts me to hear about your dogs. I will think about them in my meditation tonight. I know what it feels to have a sick pet. it sucks so so so much. They are your babies, you want to help them and yet you can only do so much. Big big hugs to you and your doggies <3
Little update: I am doing a little better. The meds seem to have started working a bit! So that is great. I am going to bust my ass and work this week for sure.





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This app is legit! 25 min meditation is like 4 hrs deep meditation. It even accesses Gamma waves. Unreal!
I'm currently in the top 1% of meditators on the app. It's such a great way to help me through this breakup.
Sha



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Set this as my phone’s Lock Screen to remind myself that I’ve got this. Even during shitty shifts, it can all turn around. I won’t make money if I don’t work.
Miss Sha! Just wanted to say that you are a inspiration and such a strong and powerfull woman!!! I am very frigging proud of you for going through that break up the way you are doing.... Keep strong, you are doing fantastic. Great things are coming your way and new ways are opening up for you, I believe in this! X
PS beautiful painting, very touching, open and (raw ) emotional. Funny thing is that it makes me feel very contrasting emotions, strong sadness but also freedom , openness , and light and even joy
You can have everything in life you want, if you will just help enough other people get what they want - Zig Ziglar
"Be thankful for the troubles of your job. They provide about half your income Robert R. Updegraff





Sha
Awww big huge hug!
Esp with our work , a emotional heavy time can be extra hard to go through since we ourselfs have to entertain to earn money . Its so easy to fall in the trap of putting off work too, bec we make our own hours...
you amazed me by getting back to work not only so quickly but being successfull at that! Still putting in hours and pulling in money. That tells me that you are able to get yourself, even if its for a limited time only, in a good mindset and energy wise place.... bec we all know, money doesnt follow, or rarely when the energy is low or negative.
Know that you inspire a whole lot of people, and give energy to so many... you are a amazing and wonderfull person!
You can have everything in life you want, if you will just help enough other people get what they want - Zig Ziglar
"Be thankful for the troubles of your job. They provide about half your income Robert R. Updegraff
i have not been that active on the forum lately, but i always followed this thread! So much support here! Gives good energy!
You can have everything in life you want, if you will just help enough other people get what they want - Zig Ziglar
"Be thankful for the troubles of your job. They provide about half your income Robert R. Updegraff
Yess I love our little support group we have going on here <3
Had a wonderful afternoon with family and feeling great <3



Oh Sha, it's beautiful! I just have to echo what Ivy and Aurora are saying - I am so thankful to have a support group of such strong women!
"Another fun and exciting evening tormenting the souls of men."
Stolen from a reg."I've learned that you can't expect anyone to treat you how you want to be treated. What you can do is CHOOSE! You get to choose if you want to tolerate, engage or have them in your life or not. When you have options, you have peace and power."
-the Goddess Marina Starr





Still training indoor cycle in the AM.
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Meditation in the AM also.
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This AM smoothie:
Pecans
Pumpkin seeds
Chia seeds
Power greens
Tangerine
Lemon juice
Orange juice
Half banana
Tablespoon Turmeric
Ice
Sha
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