It sucks. It's not really a "me" problem, at first I just thought I was blowing all my money on makeup and video games and things I didn't need, then I started tracking what I was spending money on and realized I haven't really bought anything for myself recently - a few drugstore makeup products a month, a game here and there etc. Been wearing the same clothes since I moved even.
I work in a club in a small city where leaving with $200 is a decent night for me, $300 is good, and $400 has me leaving estatic. <$150 is average though. I would honestly probably make more if I worked every weekend, admittedly, but I have autism and the sounds of more people than usual + party crowd + amped up music has me over stimulated and I just spend half of my shift in DR trying to get it together.
So yeah once in a while I do have an awesome night, that is even more than 400 but then life happens and the money is spent on..... Bills, groceries, or my work shoes break and I need a new pair, or the car/bike needs something new, one thing after another. My fiance and I catch up, which is better than how a lot of people are doing now I suppose, but have nothing in savings.
I'm incredibly frustrated. I want to buy a house or move out of our rental (a trailer which I cannot STAND being in) or have emergency cushion money or have a fund for when I'm burnt out of stripping and want to venture into something else. I just can't save it!!!!
And advice online just tells you to stop buying $5 lattes... (i make my own coffee at home)..... Buy everything in bulk (difficult when you don't consume it fast enough for it to expire, or have the money to do so at that moment)..... Sell old belongings (ive tried to no avail).... Sell your plasma????????
It's expensive to be poor and I'm just so tired from it. :/
A lot of money these past few months also went towards vehicles.... We just cannot get a working vehicle and I'm so frustrated from that alone I just want to rip my hair out thinking about it. Every car or motorcycle we've purchased has had something wrong with it. And my fiance has reassured me he could fix it.... He couldn't. So I told him we are NOT buying anymore projects, we are only buying a vehicle if we can drive it home that day. He agreed and we bought a motorcycle.... Guy we bought it from lied about what was wrong with it and we almost got into an accident while on it. So now that moneys gone too.
I just want a decent place to live, a working vehicle and financial stability, and I've been getting nowhere. I don't know if theres anything I can do any advice I can follow or whatever. I honestly just needed a place to vent but any input or even consolation is appreciated. T__T




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