I used to help other people and my now ex boyfriend, to the point i gave away over 20,000 over the last few years. I was assuming the money would come i was the #1 top earner there for 1 1/2 years my first two years, next thing you know i have a miscarriage, the flu, brochities, mono more mono another flu. Got cheated on got depressed got drunk got fired, got in a fight from an upscale club strip club, today I have $40 in my account. I have an account on a camming site i can get daily pay. but dam if one more thing goes wrong i would be screwed.
I think i got fired, the manager said take two days off and we will look at the camera, then 2 minutes later he was like youre contract is terminated. i was pming the house mom and was like im fired he said so i will go away. And she was no no honey youre drunk, call me in a couple days and ill look at the camera and see whats going on.
I was embarassed to call her in the evening and quite frankly i dont know what decision to make. Because if I call she could tell me im fired or just suspended. I was having some girls pick at me all day and saying really mean things, and mocking and making fun of me before i got drunk. Fast forward I got trashed and a girl asked me if i was taking a picture of her, when i was texting. I took offence to it, thinking she was saying i was a lesbian creeping on her or something. no offence to lesbians. But now that im not drunk, im not sure if she was genually asking if i was taking a pic of her, or was getting cute with me. I was drunk and pent up with anger from all the taunting that goes on everytime i came in the last month, so yes im embarrassed to talk to the house mom.
Throw back to the past. I had a boyfriend for over 2 years. He was a bum that lived off me. One time his friend pulled a gun on me and robbed me of like 750. His friend also texted me and threatend to cut my tongue out of my throat. He was working at his brothers buisiness and went to get off early to spend an evening with me, and his brother was like no stay i want you to do more work, and hes like im going to spend time with my girl friend. His brother said are you kidding, "those are cum whores you fuck and throw away that aint youre girlfriend, just stop you are making me lose it". My boyfriend abused me, and later i found out he cheated on me, after all i have done for him. His friends and family including the one who pulled a gun come into the club ALL THE Time. For the most part, they where all bad to me some worse then others. So if I got brought back do I really want to be there. I makes me really uncomfortable.
Aug 31, 2019 is when I found out i was cheated on. I tried sucide and had a 5 week melt down. I started coming to the club only 1 or 2 times a week. I was thinking of not calling the house mom, and just disapearing. Collecting a check from the cam and not stripping till January. Maybe, just get together with a friend once a week, go to the gym daily, work on healthy eating. I obviously had a nervous breakdown, so maybe I should heal before going to any club.



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