For start I want to apologise all cam girls on here. I really dont want you felling bad. It is only my personal felling at now. I want to warm you that wasnt a good topic.
I am 31, I am in deep deppresion, anxiety, paranoid and I am pregnant with my second child. My pregnancy is at risk. I have been bleeding twice now I dont know bacause I am all time nervous or what, the doctor doesnt found a reason. My first child see my crying more of the time.
My fear started when I discovered a website that verifies your face and looks for your other photos on the Internet, including those from your webcam. And this site is free for everyone. Soo anyone can knows about me and my past.
I can't stand that someone can recognize me, that someone can see my videos on the internet when I masturbate (thanks God i never do porn with someone else). I am paranoid because I thinking about it all the time and I cant stop. It is no depend of me

i think I'm a bad person, it makes me feel terrible, I am a bad for mi child. I'm angry with myself, I feel bad with myself, I don't know how long I can take it. I dont know where to find a help, sexologist? Psychiatrists? I am not sure therapy makes sense in this terrible case of me. I have noone which I can talk about this felling, my housband doesnt care, he said "they will see your pus*y and what? Nothing bad will happened" he totally dont understand me

what do you guys think?
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