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    Here's a list of sex worker friendly therapists:
    https://www.inclusivetherapists.com/...ex-worker-ally

    If there isn't one near you, perhaps you can get therapy online or over the phone.

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    Default Re: I hate myself now because I was cam girl few years ago.

    Also, I know of a therapist in the San Francisco Bay area who did porn. If you want more information, you can pm me.

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    OP, have you tried "following the thought through" to the end, to explore the potential possibilities, if someone were to recognize you? It can be a useful exercise to actually think through the entire scenario, as we tend to stop thinking / mentally freeze when we have a thought that scares us. Try to think through a realistic scenario where someone recognizes you. What happens next? What would he likely say? How could you react?

    If it sounds like an interesting exercise that could be helpful, maybe write the scenario down in a journal to help slow your thoughts.

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    Quote Originally Posted by eagle2 View Post
    Also, I know of a therapist in the San Francisco Bay area who did porn. If you want more information, you can pm me.
    Thank you, but I am from Europe I hope it will be not a problem. I pm.

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    OP, have you tried "following the thought through" to the end, to explore the potential possibilities, if someone were to recognize you? It can be a useful exercise to actually think through the entire scenario, as we tend to stop thinking / mentally freeze when we have a thought that scares us. Try to think through a realistic scenario where someone recognizes you. What happens next? What would he likely say? How could you react?

    If it sounds like an interesting exercise that could be helpful, maybe write the scenario down in a journal to help slow your thoughts.

    I'm afraid to even imagine it.
    I don't want to explain myself but I feel I have to. I totally dont know what to said, I regret it so much

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    Have you confirmed that your photos from camming come up in searches from that site?

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    Quote Originally Posted by eagle2 View Post
    Have you confirmed that your photos from camming come up in searches from that site?
    Yes, its my pictures

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    first world problems huh ...

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    Quote Originally Posted by honeybirdette View Post
    first world problems huh ...
    Sorry, but what r you mean?

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    Quote Originally Posted by Saddlykitten View Post
    Yes, its my pictures
    Have you ever tried contacting the site owner(s) and asked if there is any way you could get your photos removed?

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    Quote Originally Posted by Saddlykitten View Post
    Sorry, but what r you mean?
    it means in the grand scheme of things, and the current situation the entire world is facing today, imminent job losses, house repossessions, deaths of loved ones before their time etc etc etc..... the possibility that you might or might not get recognized on a webcam site that you did in the past and that your husband doesn't even care about..... is quite trivial.

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    Quote Originally Posted by honeybirdette View Post
    it means in the grand scheme of things, and the current situation the entire world is facing today, imminent job losses, house repossessions, deaths of loved ones before their time etc etc etc..... the possibility that you might or might not get recognized on a webcam site that you did in the past and that your husband doesn't even care about..... is quite trivial.
    You don't know how this person is being affected or what she is going through. The purpose of this site is to support people in the adult entertainment industry, not judge them.

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    sure but i'm still entitled to my opinion, they haven't taken free speech from us yet.......

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    When you're in a private forum, you're expected to follow the rules.

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    All members are expected to respect and promote positivity within our community. Treat all members with respect and in a mature manner. Direct or indirect insults, personal attacks, and baiting may result in posts being removed and/or your account being banned. Do not use our "Thank You" feature to encourage negative behavior. Do not cross post. Do not bump messages. Do not SPAM. Do not advertise outside of the appropriate areas.

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    Quote Originally Posted by eagle2 View Post
    When you're in a private forum, you're expected to follow the rules.



    All members are expected to respect and promote positivity within our community. Treat all members with respect and in a mature manner. Direct or indirect insults, personal attacks, and baiting may result in posts being removed and/or your account being banned. Do not use our "Thank You" feature to encourage negative behavior. Do not cross post. Do not bump messages. Do not SPAM. Do not advertise outside of the appropriate areas.
    thats cool, i did none of those things. i stated my opinion on the matter which i'm entitled to do, hopefully the OP will realize its actually quite trivial and either seek professional help or move on with her life and pregnancy. there is no other option is there? onwards and upwards, lots of positivity here.

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    Quote Originally Posted by honeybirdette View Post
    thats cool, i did none of those things. i stated my opinion on the matter which i'm entitled to do, hopefully the OP will realize its actually quite trivial and either seek professional help or move on with her life and pregnancy. there is no other option is there? onwards and upwards, lots of positivity here.
    For the record I didn’t think honey said anything wrong, just stated her opinion many do that on here and don’t get pulled up xx

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    Quote Originally Posted by eagle2 View Post
    Have you ever tried contacting the site owner(s) and asked if there is any way you could get your photos removed?
    Yes, i do everything to remove all my content. Piracy site doesnt accept dmca.

    Quote Originally Posted by honeybirdette View Post
    it means in the grand scheme of things, and the current situation the entire world is facing today, imminent job losses, house repossessions, deaths of loved ones before their time etc etc etc..... the possibility that you might or might not get recognized on a webcam site that you did in the past and that your husband doesn't even care about..... is quite trivial.
    Okk I respect your opinion. Thank you x

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    While I definitely think the OP's catastrophizing seems to be irrational and indicative of an underlying psychological issue I think it's important to remember that 'triviality' is relative. I think it's dismissive to write off whatever someone is struggling with because there's 'bigger issues out there.' I'm not sure Honeybirdette meant it as callously as it came off though and was just trying to appeal to logic.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Genoveve View Post
    While I definitely think the OP's catastrophizing seems to be irrational and indicative of an underlying psychological issue I think it's important to remember that 'triviality' is relative. I think it's dismissive to write off whatever someone is struggling with because there's 'bigger issues out there.' I'm not sure Honeybirdette meant it as callously as it came off though and was just trying to appeal to logic.
    no i didn't, and perhaps trivial was the wrong word to use so i apologise for that. i just meant it really isnt something the OP should be worrying about to the extent that its causing her health problems during pregnancy, but i understand how it came across and i apologize if it came across callously.

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    The thing is, people don't always have control over what upsets them. Different people can react differently to the same thing. There are some people who are perfectly comfortable doing porn, and couldn't care less if their friends and family see it. For others, it would be very upsetting or traumatizing, if someone they knew saw nude photos of them. For Naomi Osaka, just being interviewed live on camera is such a traumatic experience, that she dropped out of the French Open, and is passing on millions of dollars, just so she can avoid it. Most people wouldn't have that problem, especially if they were getting paid millions for it, but she does. Some people may need help from mental health professionals in dealing with things like that.

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    Have you consulted with a lawyer to see if there are any legal options for getting your photos removed? If they're not making much money off of your videos, perhaps if they were threatened with a lawsuit, they may decide to take down your photos just to avoid the hassle of being sued.

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    Quote Originally Posted by eagle2 View Post
    Have you consulted with a lawyer to see if there are any legal options for getting your photos removed? If they're not making much money off of your videos, perhaps if they were threatened with a lawsuit, they may decide to take down your photos just to avoid the hassle of being sued.
    Yes, but it is soo expensive, and noone know results... its a piracy sites, when you start read opinion about it many ppl wrote its child porn there and noone do anything with it. In reddit or twitter ppl who interested wrote names whos owner and still nothing... btw people from europe! This sites in blacklist in russia (iam not russian) my friend told me that. Soo I cant believe sites likes this can work at thia time and everyone do totally notnig.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Saddlykitten View Post
    Yes, but it is soo expensive, and noone know results... its a piracy sites, when you start read opinion about it many ppl wrote its child porn there and noone do anything with it. In reddit or twitter ppl who interested wrote names whos owner and still nothing... btw people from europe! This sites in blacklist in russia (iam not russian) my friend told me that. Soo I cant believe sites likes this can work at thia time and everyone do totally notnig.
    Sounds like you are stumbling down the anti-porn rabbit hole. Whatever you do try to avoid turning to them for help unless you are looking to be shamed.

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    So how are you finding the pics of yourself? Are you googling your cam name? If so, then in order for anyone to find the pics, they would have to know your cam name first.

    If I google my cam name, I find images of me. However, if I google my real name, or something like "brown haired very large fat woman about 40-something from London wears glasses on cam", my cam name doesn't come up. My images don't come up. My videos don't come up. My actual live sites where I sell my content/fan club don't come up.

    Anyone deliberately looking for YOU would need to know your cam name. Anyone accidentally stumbling across your images from being on one of the sites would have been there looking for porn - would any of your family or work people admit to finding your image while looking for porn? They have a lot more to lose than you do.

    I hope you find the therapy and help that you need.

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    Yes you totally right! But the second thing is I am felling bad that I undress for stranger person. And I dont know how to deal with it.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Saddlykitten View Post
    Yes, but it is soo expensive, and noone know results... its a piracy sites, when you start read opinion about it many ppl wrote its child porn there and noone do anything with it. In reddit or twitter ppl who interested wrote names whos owner and still nothing... btw people from europe! This sites in blacklist in russia (iam not russian) my friend told me that. Soo I cant believe sites likes this can work at thia time and everyone do totally notnig.

    There was a pornstar that got her videos online removed when she left. Forgot her name but started with Penny. I'm sure that costs some money of some sort. I don't know that practice of law well in the entertainment industry well.

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