Hello, I was a dancer for years and now do cam full time.
I've been with my husband 10 years, hes the only person I've ever slept with and he with me.
I recently found out he was really REALLY into the cucking fetish.
Ive always knew, but then I used his laptop for something and long story short he was looking at cuck porn and beta porn for multiple hours every day.
%99 of it is cucking shit. He literally only looks at "beta" porn, and husband degrading porn and more than anything else very descriptive and degrading captions. Most involving his wife but sometimes just females.
Obviously, I have nothing against porn but the vast amount of it took me back. He had 3 different browsers (2 hidden) FULL of porn and he looks me up daily.
I would make him content and he would watch that with the porn.
Guys, I mean HOURS of him just reading cuck fantasy stuff, stuff about how badly he wants his wife to fuck someone else and wife stuff.
I was even testing him and asked him if he would be okay with me meeting another guy of tinder to just hang out
Here's were it escalates, there have been times in the past hes urged me to do things I didn't want to do with other guys.
I'm not into it, I've only been with him and that's how I always though it would be.
I had a really close male friend in my teens that I maybe got a little too firty with (in my late teens) while we were married and he pressured me to initiate dirty talk with this guy and send him pics. It ruined the friendship.
He also has had me contact men from ads and send them pics and ask for pics... At the time i was reluctant but went along with it but now I look back and I realize how weird it is.
Hes adamant its just a fantasy, but hes crossed lines before. . .
Before I confronted him about the porn, I made a Tindr. Ive never done that before but I was already raging at him and so I made a tinder and showed him (trying to evoke jealousy) and show him how close he was to losing me. I even message a couple of guys... The next day I found out he saved the screenshots of me saying I messaged guys and was masturbating too it.
I was crushed.
Even now after weve fought over this, before he went to bed last night I told him i was done having sex with him because he was gross to me now and he said "oh, what are you going to do, how are you going to get it, wont you still need it" and I could tell he was trying to lead me into saying I would fuck someone else. He also looked up "hotwife tinder" and "wife fucks tinder date" for DAYS.
Mostly, now he makes me feel like a creep from work(cam/club).
Thats truly my problem here.
I had him elevated so far above them in my head and I'm having a hard time as seeing him as just another pervert but he clearly is.
We had a big fight about it last night and it ended with makeup sex. During sex, right after the fight about his cuckolding addiction, he told me he was a beta not worthy of sex and he would find someone better.
If i was to directly tell him I wanted to screw someone else, I know he would let me. That makes me sad and devastated for some reason. I could press this with my pinky and have it all cave in.
My bestfriend called me "lucky", but I feel like im in shambles. Any feedback? He also holds cam over me now when I bring it up even though hes never expressed a problem with it. Like a "how dare you judge my porn habits when you do what you do" and its sad because I know he has some point. I calculated he looked at porn a average of 4 hours a day, everyday for the past month. Mon-Sun
He also steals my phone when Im sleeping to check for new nudes, begs for them, and compulsively checks my cam sites/looks my cam name up (atleast 60 times this month).



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