Hi everyone, i'm feeling so shitty right now i just need to get it out. :'( Im a college student and needless to say i strip to pay for the insane high cost of tuition (how else can i come up with 30K each year?)
i live in the dorms, & the walls are really thin- i heard some girls talking all kinds of shit about me- ("the stripper girl" as they said). i don't know how word got out so fast about this, but a lot of people know...and the things these girls said were VERY hateful, and catty, and not based at all on my personality (they have avoided getting to know me) but only on the fact of where i work- i have always been nice and friendly to them. It makes me so mad! I wish my parents were rich enough to pay for everything, i'd love to have a free ride like they do, but, i don't! The only thing i can try to make myself feel better is look at last nights wad, & it isn't helping...it shouldn't have to be a trade off. Maybe its something wrong with me that i cant seem to keep girl friends but it seems that people judge me before i even meet them on the basis of what i do, it sucks, i get so many dirty looks from people that have never even met me! Guy friends are great and all but you need girls sometimes! I feel so lonely already this just makes it so much worse. i'm like a freakin outcast of society, its awful. Why are people so hateful, and judgemental :'( :'( i just had to rant



! I wish my parents were rich enough to pay for everything, i'd love to have a free ride like they do, but, i don't! The only thing i can try to make myself feel better is look at last nights wad, & it isn't helping...it shouldn't have to be a trade off. Maybe its something wrong with me that i cant seem to keep girl friends but it seems that people judge me before i even meet them on the basis of what i do, it sucks, i get so many dirty looks from people that have never even met me! Guy friends are great and all but you need girls sometimes! I feel so lonely already this just makes it so much worse. i'm like a freakin outcast of society, its awful. Why are people so hateful, and judgemental :'( :'( i just had to rant
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would do. LOL just joking.






grrr...... just the fact that they were talking shit about you BEFORE they got to know you tells alot about their character; or lack thereof.
I haven't dealt with what you are going through but I just wanted to voice my support. Keep your head up. What matters most is how you feel about yourself-not others.

You're right, i shouldnt let it get to me...if they want to talk about me, fine, what does it really matter. Luckily the girls in my clubs are nice, & not catty (for the most part) so i have made friends w/ most, which does help...
...& my roommate obviously knows, so her friends know, etc...coming through the dorm at 4am in full makeup with a backpack on also doesn't help, haha! I'm not ashamed of it. Just afraid of how people react.
). I'll survive, the year's almost over. Thanks for the kind words, you guys have really helped me feel better

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