Lately, after a short break (maybe two weeks), I've found myself DREADING work. It came pretty much out of nowhere. I think it's related to the fact that a lot of my friends are getting to run around and enjoy the summer, and I feel like I have to work when everyone else is having fun. But the biggest problem is my attitude. I can be fine until I walk onto the floor and then BAM. My confidence is low and I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't know what to do on stage and get bored and worried the customers are bored too. When I do feel like talking to people, it is REALLY HARD to have any interest in them, even enough to make small talk. And a lot of men lately seem to want me to bend the rules (both mine and the clubs) and it leaves me constantly feeling like I have to keep one eye on the customer (to keep him from going too far) and one eye on the manager (to keep myself out of trouble). I give less mileage than a lot of my coworkers (it is a pretty low mileage club overall, though) because it's what I prefer but also because I don't want to get in trouble since I am the new girl here.
I am just really burnt out on this and on my entire financial situation and how unfair everything seems. I try not to drink at work but lately it seems like I might have to just to stay in good spirits. I know I should just 'snap out of it' but for some reason this time is harder than usual.
Help?



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