At the moment, I'm not a happy camper. Had an appointment with a new therapist a couple of days ago (the old one dumped me after I missed an apt.....I fucked up and forgot on the day of an exam). Walked into the office, she seemed nice, sat down, we began talking...usual routine. After being completely honest with her about my job as a dancer, I hear, "That's [dancing] something women with no self esteem do."
Ok....I realize she's from a different generation, and may share the beliefs of people in mainstream society, but the broad generalization she made made my stomach sink. How the heck can I get support if she's not objective? I realize a good therapist should both challenge and support the patient, so I hope I'm not being picky here. She said, "we'll try to devote some energy towards other ways of making $$." Again, not a good feeling.
I was also didn't feel like she understood me on the drug issue too. Sure, three years ago I used for more than a few months, but have managed to stay clean for that period of time and remain in the industry when needed. Grr....I may quit in the fall when my TA stipend kicks in. At most it will be once a week at a location far from where I live. And I might be able to retire...who knows. But I will be the one to make that choice, not anyone else. She also noticed my nailpolish and said, "I've never worked with a gothic person before. I normally don't deal with adolescents." I'm 24, and not a guinea pig.
I'm just afraid nothing constructive will come of these sessions, and am wondering whether or not to give it a chance. Her sessions are covered by my insurance, so wasting $$ isn't an issue. Just time and energy. I'll go in this week any try to address my concerns. Wondering if it will even be worth it.
thanks to all for listening.....perhaps other dancers have been confronted with similar stereotypes in a therapy situation. Ok...nuff ranting. It's time to get my low-self-esteemed-drug-addicted-gothic-vampire-bloodsucker-whore-ass to work![]()


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