Now that she knows you have been a stripper, she will always be suspicious. If you go on a trip or seem to have anything expensive (a stereo, etc.), she will assume you are doing it again. If you felt so guilty about dancing that you broke down and told her, imagine how guilty you will feel if you continue to dance KNOWING that she is looking for the signs. You will have to be even more secretive, almost devious, to keep it from her now.
The hardest thing about dancing, for me, is the secretive aspect. Noone in my family knows about it. Still, I completely support myself. If my parents were supporting me as your mother is doing, I would feel terrible as well. You say your mother supports you, not mentioning your father. Did she raise you as a single mother? If so, think about the hardships she endured so you could go to school. If she can only afford to give you a $100 allowance per month, I assume that it is because she is indeed struggling to give you all that she can. I think your money from dancing should go to alleviate some of the burden she is carrying. If you are an adult capable of making the decision to dance, then you should not rely on her. You can make enough in this business to pay for school, books, food, rent, and all of the extras.
Your mom is paying for school, books, rent, and some food. Are you honestly dancing just to put food in your mouth? Or are you dancing to give yourself extras. I don't think its fair to take her money and use it for subsistence while using your dancing money for expendables (CDS, going out, clothes). Especially if she is so upset about it
Don't dance until she is no longer supporting you. You can always get loans!
Good luck...I sympathize!



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