i just got home from e.r.
pardon my puntuation and stuff but i'm sooo fucked up right now. and not by choice. i was drugged.
anyways i went to do a bachelor party tonight. all was welll till all of the other 5 girls doing it said that they wanted me drunk, so i kept drinking (BAD I know) next thing I know, i'm at the hall hwere the party is in the bathroom getting ready and my "partener" is saying to some guy "she wants e" i kept insisitnging that I didn't but she kept saying yes. then i remember them bringing me "water" then i went on stage and did my stuff with the other girl. then i came off and felt sick. i went to get my shit together when some guy followed me into the bathroom. he offered me $50 to fuck. i said hell no leave me alone but he kept after me. he kept trying and trying and trying. i kept saying no. next thing i know i feel paralyzed and am in a bathroom stall with him and he is spanking me and trying to get his dick in me. ewww. next thing i remember is my driver puting me in the car. he locked me in there and i couldn't find my cell phone or figure out how to unlock the doors and run away. so i am sitting in there sobbing just laying on the horn and when i finally figure out how to unlock he and my "partener" come and say i better be good or mcd (my company) won't hire me out to do anymore shows. they also give me $30. THANKS. ok we are supposed to get 100$ just for walking in hte door so i felt totally ripped off on top of being raped and drugged. at this point i was wishing i had a gun so i could just blow my head off.
i call my bf and him and him and his bro come and pick up me and my car from my bosses apt. then bf takes me home and tells my ma what happeend. meahwhile i'm talking to day job boss and she tells me that what ever i'm on is DEF. not e and i should go to er. ok so boyfriend makes me tell parents, who then take me to e.r. I've been there since about 1:30. I answered all their q's rightso they do blood tests and urine tests and find out i've been drugged. go fuckin figure. i've been wishing i was dead all night.. finally at 4 they wake me up and tell me that i tested positive for (SP) anphinmins or something like that, they tell me most likely speed. god i can't stop shivering i'm so cold. and i've been nautious all along. i tried to make myself puke but nothing came up. then i come home and here i am. with 30 fucking dollers, raped and drugged. i had a chat with a cop who wanted me to press charges but i could barely remember any names when he was visiting me in the hospital. oh yeah i guess i had a blood alcohol level of like 1.75 my mom said.
i dont' know what to do with myslef, i can't sleep, i can't anything at this point, and my tummy's growling.
i love my boyfriend and parents for taking such good care of me.
my parents are gonna tear me a new one tomorow when i wake up.
i told them not to worry about doing anymore shows with me cuz i hate this, and to just keep all the money i "made' cuz i ddidn't want anything to do with it.
i've got such a headache and i'm so cold and brrrrr. and thirsty.
my lips ar echapped.
if you wanna talk im me cuz i'm on and i'm super lonely right now.
and can't quite sleep.
sorry if i'm not making sense, but given the circumstances this is pretty damn good.



so they do blood tests and urine tests and find out i've been drugged. go fuckin figure. i've been wishing i was dead all night.. finally at 4 they wake me up and tell me that i tested positive for (SP) anphinmins or something like that, they tell me most likely speed. god i can't stop shivering i'm so cold. and i've been nautious all along. i tried to make myself puke but nothing came up. then i come home and here i am. with 30 fucking dollers, raped and drugged. i had a chat with a cop who wanted me to press charges but i could barely remember any names when he was visiting me in the hospital. oh yeah i guess i had a blood alcohol level of like 1.75 my mom said.
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