Hi ladies,
So here is my story (in brief detail)....
I suffered from anorexia for a number of years from the ages of 12-16, at my lowest I was under 80lbs. I 'got better/put on weight' but still had a controlling nature over my food and eating habits. My body image was still screwed up and I had no idea how I looked to the outside world. I obssessively stayed at the 100-110lbs range for several years thinking I was 'better'. I wasn't eating properly (once or twice a day) and I wasn't eating well (major lack of protein). Food was the main focus of my thoughts and daily rountine.
I have been eating somewhat normally (4 medium sized healthy meals a day) and going to the gym and lifting. I have gone up to 119lbs and am a little uncomfortable but don't want to start obessing again as I know where it can lead...... my bf is at about 20% I am 5'3" with a natural hourglass shape.
I guess I am fighting with these questions right now:
-Have I [email protected]*d up my metabolism from years of bad eating habits?
- If so how long will this take to chill out?
- Is it my weight or my body image that needs to change?
I guess for so long I was identified as a certain person at a certain weight and its hard to break that mould. I am 23 now and don't want to continue with this struggles or mind games.
I would really appreciate any honest input.
k xo



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as hard as that might be.


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